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Wednesday, March 28, 2007

hello ppl!

now im in sch..and im just bored. i feel like blogging now though. just finished my BORING lit lecture.. i feel like uploading pics to my blog cause it seems to be picture-less..

btw, i have a fairy name: Bramble Yewfrost.. hahaha!! cute! bye2!

i love teddy.. but i very sad..cause he got bungkus..nyahahahahahah!

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8:53 PM;

Sunday, March 25, 2007

today i had to stay home cause stg happened to my feet.. i stepped on this metal thing at home and it kinda cut my feet.. luckily its not directly at the centre of my feet but at the side..and im oso lucky that i didnt step on some rusted metal.. phew!! so can still wear shoe tmr but gonna be painful i guess.. u noe rite?? im scared of pain.. i cant get myself in pain and i oso cant see other ppl get in pain.. cause i will feel the pain as well..

anws...i played PS2 with my younger bro since i had ntg to do.. now i just feel like blogging.. ytd had alumni band pract.. it was as usual boring with a few ppl turned up.. but i still enjoyed myself playing my bass..

tmr will be a new term for us after the so-hectic-but-i-kinda-dun-give-a-damn-with-the-results of my block test..ok..i lied.. i do care a abt my results.. but some papers were disappointing though.. but nevertheless this is just the beginning.. must work hard for the REAL thing..

i want chocolates now.. im craving for chocolates seh especially my favourite "RITTER SPORTS CORNFLAKES".. i also feel like eating ice cream.. errrr..... oi stomach! y must u make me crave for all the wrong stuffs??

lets talk abt teddy.. i think its been quite sumtimes since i really blog abt teddy properly in my blog.. ok.. lets update! teddy has been becoming extremely cute for the past few days.. alamak, y must he be so cute?? hes just irresistable to look at.. hahaha! talked to him a couple of times..not alot though..but still talk ok? actually not much updates abt teddy.. hes just my teddy.. my circle of clique that knows hu is teddy is getting bigger.. my classmate's guys are beginning to know abt my teddy.. audi, amin, vicky, the mly girls in my class, afi, bad, shahirah and theres more actually.. hahaha! its ok.. as long as they dun make a big fuss over it.. come to think of it, i think teddy knows abt it oredi.. maybe.. but im not sure either.. hehe!

as quoted by sufi "hes my bungkus boy rite now"hahahaha! but i still prefer calling him my teddy!

love lyd!

you are a priority..dun make me ur option instead
12:31 AM;

Friday, March 23, 2007

yeay! yippee!! yoohoo!!! block test finally over.. phew! it was tough for some papers but hopefull im able to do reasonably well for any of my subjects.. but its not entirely over.. prelim 1 and 2 will be coming rite up..haiz! thats JC life ppl.. full of tests and exams esp for year 2.. anw.. im still not regreting that ive choosen this path for my education.. "suffer for only 8 months more, and u can enjoy for ur entire life without much worries"..quoted by beloved mr how, my econs tutor.. its true actually.. we just need to push ourselves for another 8 only 8 more mths before u get to enjoy.. i will wan to get to sumwhere after all the hard work that ive put in.. go lydia!

anws, today had PE.. luckily its just 2.4 running and not interval.. i will die if its interval.. 2 weeks nvr run confirm my stamina has gone bad.. but my timing was not dat bad actually.. haha! napfa is in 2 weeks time.. nxt week will be J1 camp so there wun be any PE lessons but i want to train with my classmates.. and play games with them.. hehe!

theres cca fair today.. but its as usual very boring.. but luckily my booth is situated near teddy's training area.. so can see him train oso.. hehe! talking abt teddy.. i am still happy and not regreting that i like him.. hes just so cute! hehe! laplap teddy!

bye2!

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5:31 AM;

Sunday, March 18, 2007

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3:06 AM;

Friday, March 16, 2007

hello ppl!

its been quite sumtime since i last blogged abt aniting.. anw.. ive been busy mugging for the block test this coming week.. i have the feeling that im gonna fail my GP cause i wasnt able to finish the paper.. so there goes the marks for one of my subjects.. thats y im concentrating on other of my subjects..

im so tired and i really need to take a break.. furthermore, i miss him.. i really miss him..:(

Monday
i went to sch today to study with amin, sufi, siti, afi and shahira.. we stayed till abt 6 and then headed back.. i saw teddy.. thank goodness!

Tuesday
i went to sch again with the same peeps to study.. this time i went to sch alone..and guess what.. i bumped into teddy the first thing i reached school.. we said hello to each other and he was damn cute.. :).. sat down with amin only cause siti and sufi were having sum council meeting.. and guess wat?? amin knows abt teddy oredi.. i was apparently looking at him and amin saw it..hahaha!! its alrite.. more guys are beginning to know abt my teddy...

Wednesday
i came to sch again.. i thought i would be able to see teddy longer today but nope.. he left quite early.. today me, shahira and siti didnt really study.. the three of us were just damn lazy to mug oredi.. we played soccer at the futsal court lah and even went to watch the basketball match.. hahah! me and siti made this list of nicknames for the cute guys/ oklah maybe not really cute but just nicknames that we are going to use to call these guys..

~teddy - this is my one and only teddy!!
~babyface - this guy really has cute babe face
~seksa - another meaning would be sexy..haha.. hot body..
~sexy legs - a runner that has sexy legs.. this is for siti
~sexy legs look-a-likey - he looks like the sexy legs
~comel - siti finds this guy cute
~a-minah - this is amin
~we WISH you a merry xmas - this is for audi
~AR - this one kat confirm like
~commando - this guy really looks like our commando when we visited the SAFTI
~booboo - our info-comm guy that always race with us for GP lecture seat..

haha..thats all.. some are cute but some are just nicknames that we imposed to them..hahahahahahaha!!

i miss teddy ppl.. i want to see him.. i really miss him.. bye2.. laplap..

you are a priority..dun make me ur option instead
3:45 AM;

Thursday, March 08, 2007

well i did mention in my previous post that my next entry will be after the block test..but!! haha.. im back!!

well...this goes to anione that read my previous post.. im sorry if im too harsh,,

to siti.. im sorry if i hurt you aniway.. i noe you care alot abt me and im thankfum enuff.. i really am grateful..

as for teddy.. i have a feeling you know abt it oredi.. i know that he might have a known abt me liking him.. but its alrite.. im cool..

gdluck peeps!!!

you are a priority..dun make me ur option instead
5:29 AM;

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

i wonder if its wrong to like someone?? isnt love free?? y must i lie to myself and act differently when you're in love?? cant i get my my chance of enjoying this "love" feeling when i can?? must i be quiet if i see someone i love dearly walked past me or stg?? must i be just dumb and not say aniting?? y cant i enjoy this when im still at this age?? am i right??

experience love first before you can understand the position im in.. its no pain, no gain.. if you want result, then suffer first.. im sorry..im just an idealist.. and hafiz knows best what that means.. whatever happens, i will try to get what i want.. if you think im unreasonable, well theres no success without trying..am i rite?? i dun mind getting hurt or get rejected...atleast im proud to say that i did try and did experience what is to love someone... isnt it better this way?? oh for goodness sake, whatever happens i will still love him alrite? till im very sure that theres no chance for me with him... cmon lah its not as if my world evolves around him.. its just that he makes me happy.. well is it wrong for me to find my happiness by loving someone?? if tis is over exaggerated of me liking him..well i can only say that this is love... if you love or like someone, everything abt him just makes you happy..

i duno y i just had to say all these in my blog.. im more worried for this than not being able to get teddy.. cause its really affecting me.. i cant make myself to forget him and thats for sure.. im sorry if im too harsh..but i just wanna get my points clear and straight.. cause its kinda irritate me to a certain extent.. but im thankful to have my family and frens that do care abt me.. :).. its just that i rather get this feeling cleared before aniting.. i dowan to be a liar, hyprocrite or watever.. its better for me to convey my real feelings here than just keep it to myself.. well what are blogs for rite?? :)

anws.. block test is in a week time.. extreme mugging in progress.. maybe my nxt update will be after the block test..haha.. maybe okae.. so till then, goodluck people for you exams.. laplap:)

you are a priority..dun make me ur option instead
4:26 AM;

Sunday, March 04, 2007

what is wrong with my teddy?

ytd, i waited for teddy to be online.. and i was sleepy..so i slept for an hour and then got back online to see if hes there.. i woke up at 12am..and i saw him.. i was happy.. but i thought i shudnt talk to him immediately.. so i waited for like a few minutes.. and then hes offline all of a sudden.. aiyo! i was sad that i didnt get to talk to him..

so just now i saw him again.. and i tried talking to him..but guess wat he never reply.. i just asked a simple question.. wats wrong with him? its okae... i will just wait and see..

teddy, do you notice me?? cause i always do....

you are a priority..dun make me ur option instead
2:37 PM;

Saturday, March 03, 2007

today is my mummy's bdae.. i woke up in the morning to wish her happy birthday.. i think i was the first person to wish her okae.. so proud of myself.. anws.. i gave her two kisses on both cheeks.. am i a sweet daughter??hehe!!

later in gonna buy bdae cake... gonna have a small party at home with lotsa foods.. haha.. im so happy if theres foods..haha!

i will update soon after the whole "party" okae.. bye2!!

btw, is my new skin nice?? =)

you are a priority..dun make me ur option instead
1:05 PM;

now im at home with my parents onli.. my two bros went out to watch soccer at some place.. they watching liverpool vs arsenal if im not wrong.. watever lah k.. im not dat a crazy fan of english soccer.. im onli a big fan of ijc soccer team.. haha! obvious reason..my teddy is the one playing..

anws we had dinner as a whole family including my sis, my bro-in-law and my bro's girlfren.. before tht me and bro helped mother cooked the foods.. my bro cooked some chicken thingy with cheese.. he boasted in front of his gerl saying that its nice..well..it is nice actually. we ate like alot food together.. kak nura' my bro's gf brought some jelly and its super yummy.. then we ate cake too..i bought the cake okae..hehe!

after that was the cam-whoring session.. we laughed alot seh..then the whole family went to look at photos..like old photo albums about my family.. kak nura said i look cute when i was small..hehe..i so happy..:).. then she got to see my bro when hes young.. haha! my bro didnt let her see the photos of him lah.. he was embarrased of course.. but in the end kak nura got to see..and she laughed like nobody business man..hahahahahahah!!!

after that we sat at the living room watching tv... and now they left oredi...it was a great day today.. i didnt go for alumni pract though.. i miss my sec sch bass now.. 3 weeks never touch leh.. i hate innova's bass.. damn out of tune... i miss playing as a whole band again.. i miss competions.. im so looking forward with the end of the year International Band Competition in Genting.. haha! hopefully can get first again! haha....

this weekend i want to start mugging for my block test.. i did some qns on geog..and im proud of it..hehehehe... where is teddy? i didnt get to talk to him ytd and apparently im missing him now..hehe...

you are a priority..dun make me ur option instead
4:27 AM;

Friday, March 02, 2007

okae.. today is the release of the A level results.. okae..as for me, i got back my mly results.. ok.. i got C for my mly okae.. actually i duno whether to feel happy or sad.. its a result that is never here or there.. so i wasnt too sure to be happy anot.. but im dead serious of not retaking my mly again.. cause i think its already my best and i cant afford to lose my precious curriculum time to study mly.. so i rather forgo and be happy with the results that i got..

so today.. we got the results at about 12.40 pm.. but before that, during our econs lecture, we heard the announcement being made by our P about the J3 results.. and guess wat?? they did extremely well.. unexpected for a new JC like ours.. we are now of the same standard with the middle group JC.. which is a very very good sign for a new JC like ours.. we beated YJC i guess so.. so well done INNOVA!! im so proud for my J3.. and now the pressure is back to us.. we are so-called the better batch as compared to the J3..so there will be a higher expectation of our results.. furthermore, they put so much effort in our PW as compared to the J3.. therefore, in the end we still have to produce similar results if can even better.. anws.. im still happy for them..

okae..back to our release of our results.. okae..the tension in my class was so tense up.. saw ppl crying and sum happy.. but..i tink its really a reality check for our class.. i think after all the cries, my classmates are better prepared for the A levels hopefully.. to me.. i have to really2 buck up and start studying.. theres no more playing ard...cause J2 life is seriously the most stressful period of time.. we really have to push ourselves.. after the reality check message from mr how, i really need to get myself to study.. furthermore, after visiting the career guidance fair, i see the importance of obtaining excellent results.. therefore...cmon LYDIA!!

anws.. we went to the career fair today at suntec.. it was okae..but kinda boring.. after that we headed to marina square for our dinner at KFC.. haha!! u noe, me, leea and kat went to order our food at this counter... then this guy..i think hes crazy...kat asked whether if theres regular ice milo.. then guess wat he said back.."theres onli one size...like your sch uniform"we were like ???????.....huh?? wth? so we ignored..then kat asked for the chicken ribs and he said "okae chicken rib like your uniform" @#$@$%##@... we were like huh??? again.. hes totally crazy.. i saw this guy before but he worked at other fast food restaurants then..omg!! thats crazy.. i wonder how cum ppl can still hired him..

after that..theres this fair inside marina square about the army force.. haha!! went to look ard and kpo abit.. i thought i would be able to see teddy..cause..teddy..you noe how hes like...hes interested in these kinda stuffs.. then theres show about their combat training..watever it is.. haha! good skills for me to beat my big bro..haha!

then i went home to talk about it to my big bro..and he aksked me to demonstrate..and i was like "what!!" u think i noe is it??? then he taught me sum basic skills to protect myself..haha! so we were like "haiyah!!...haiyah!!"..and my mum was like shouting at us,,"what are you doing??!!so noisy lah!!" haha! it was funny shit! then my big bro commented about one advertisement abt the air force.. haha!! thats funny but i wun wanna elaborate it...haha..

before i end.. today i did interval training for 5 rounds..damn tiring..but im happy that i managed to improve my timing.. used to run like half a round for 1min10sec but today it was like 55sec.. so i was satisfied after the run.. hehe! but still i need to further train myself for napfa.. can u help us hafiz?? thanks!okae bye!

you are a priority..dun make me ur option instead
5:13 AM;