ok fine.. i havent been updating my blog for quite sometime (its not as if this blog is read by anyone also).. well blame it on my A's.. which not over but yet i can declare as party time still.. y?? cause i am left with a freaking last paper that ends so far away from the rest of my subjects.. and worse still its a day before prom... whats wrong with people that set the schedule for the exams.. ok lets not blame them.. but blame those that decided to have prom on that day.. but im ok..:) cause i have prepared my dress long enuff before prom.. so theres not much of a problem for me.. nyaha!

lets get back to a serious issue that i really need to share.. my name is lydia..and i have been made to look like a fool, a really dumb fool.. all for the name of love.. and to think that i did such a thing..its way beyond my league.. wat was i thinking??????? omg!! worse still,.... oh nvm... anw wat can i say, i have done it and i cant turn back time.. so i have to just live with this for my entire life of being made a fool...

i feel like screaming out loud.. i am not in a good state of mind for the past few days.. well simply because im thinking abt many stuffs...



honestly, im sad... inside.. well people may think im happy cause ive done it... but the agony of waiting and waiting will never stop bothering me...
nobody is at fault.. its just my own wishful thinking... maybe its a bad choice afterall.. maybe i should just let it be a secret and will always be.... oh damn! wat have i done??? i shouldnt be looking high up.. when im actually just a mere lydia.. cant help the fact that im not belong to those high end... or maybe i dowan to be part of them.. cause i like being me.. but being me isnt a good thing afterall esp looking at the ones you love.. the loves that can never accept me.. maybe i should stop dreaming.. and find stg that is of "my own size"..cause i can never belong there.. never..

you are a priority..dun make me ur option instead
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