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2007-11-23T05:20:00.001-08:00

i like you alot!!!!!!!! damn it!!!!

ok watever

2007-11-20T22:51:00.000-08:00

ok fine.. i havent been updating my blog for quite sometime (its not as if this blog is read by anyone also).. well blame it on my A's.. which not over but yet i can declare as party time still.. y?? cause i am left with a freaking last paper that ends so far away from the rest of my subjects.. and worse still its a day before prom... whats wrong with people that set the schedule for the exams.. ok lets not blame them.. but blame those that decided to have prom on that day.. but im ok..:) cause i have prepared my dress long enuff before prom.. so theres not much of a problem for me.. nyaha!

lets get back to a serious issue that i really need to share.. my name is lydia..and i have been made to look like a fool, a really dumb fool.. all for the name of love.. and to think that i did such a thing..its way beyond my league.. wat was i thinking??????? omg!! worse still,.... oh nvm... anw wat can i say, i have done it and i cant turn back time.. so i have to just live with this for my entire life of being made a fool...

i feel like screaming out loud.. i am not in a good state of mind for the past few days.. well simply because im thinking abt many stuffs...

honestly, im sad... inside.. well people may think im happy cause ive done it... but the agony of waiting and waiting will never stop bothering me...
nobody is at fault.. its just my own wishful thinking... maybe its a bad choice afterall.. maybe i should just let it be a secret and will always be.... oh damn! wat have i done??? i shouldnt be looking high up.. when im actually just a mere lydia.. cant help the fact that im not belong to those high end... or maybe i dowan to be part of them.. cause i like being me.. but being me isnt a good thing afterall esp looking at the ones you love.. the loves that can never accept me.. maybe i should stop dreaming.. and find stg that is of "my own size"..cause i can never belong there.. never..

back to my roots

2007-09-16T01:44:00.000-07:00

prelim 2 is going to be over in two days time.. phew! oh well.. what can i say? the usual "the papers were ok..cant say that its easy or hard..but doable".. but results seem to prove a whole lot different thing.. haiyah!! well just hope this time it will be better.. anws, A's is like 40 plus more days.. 40 PLUS MORE DAYS.. oh my.. its less than two months.. time to just study and study and study.. its fasting month now and i hope its a blessing in disguise.. when people start celebrating for RAYA, it only gonna remind me that its the start of A's..gees..its scarier than i thought..

anws. teddy has been a notie boy. though hes still cute as ever, but he showed me his true colours. and im actually taken aback by it.. haha.. not that i dun like but instead its better.. a tinge of notieness is better than totally goody-to-shoes.. :) notie putty tat!

love is in the air for me and my frens.. everybody is head over heals with guys.. nyaha! the closer you get to ur A's, the more i see my frens liking that special someone.. haha! better concentrate huh? study first tau..

ok lah.. lap lap and away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-08-07T07:48:00.000-07:00

fries apples raspberry ice-cream sushi.. do you think it will go well with lychee yogurt durian icetea apricot? what do you think? that is if you get it..

say hello to prelim2..:)

2007-07-29T23:32:00.001-07:00

its been ages since i update this blog of mine.. ive been very busy for these past few weeks.. prelims and endless mugging just not allowing me to have time to update aniting.. this is the time that i really need to be focussed of i want to go university.. so sorry peeps that i havent been spending time with u ppl out there.. trust me after my A's everything will be back to normal..

so anw, ive managed to squeeze in some time from mugging to update abt myself.. my prelims result were not as fantastic but ive improved and im proud of myself.. though theres still plenty of room for improvement, im happy enuff :).. now my aim is to get better results for my prelim 2.. have i told you guys this, but A's is less than 100 days.. oh gosh.. its frightening.. so ive been mugging all night after school for three weeks oredi.. not bad huh? stayed back till 9pm everyday in the library to revise, finish up assignments and plenty other stuffs to cover.. its effective studying late at night in school i think plus the extra motivation that i got..nyaha! teddy!

and yah.. talking abt teddy.. i got this 'news'.. teddy's class got to know abt somebody(me) from my class likes somebody(teddy) from his class.. get it so far? nyaha! this math teacher of mine got to know and apparently told teddy's CT(form teacher) that one of his boys has an admirer.. and this CT went to share the news with the class -slaps forehead-.. alamak! i heard and i was shocked.. luckily my math teacher nvr say my name..or else.. im in deep shit/embarassment/dunno wat to do... so anws.. this guy from that class went abt asking my fren who is this girl.. we acted blur by saying we didnt know abt it.. and guess wat.. after much guessing been made, the guy came into a conclusion that its ME... omg! but the "phew" part was that they got the wrong guy... nyaha! hahahahah... abit exciting but abit sad as well.. teddy knows abt it but he seems not bothered.. :(

im going for prom.. cant wait for that.. i went when i was in primary school and secondary school.. so JC is a must.. and i hope teddy is going as well.. nyaha!

lets get serious.. im pissed after this guy said stg to me.. not gonna mention name and wat he told me.. lets get this straight.. why cant i do it? do u think im not as matured as she is? y must it be her and not me? its freaking irritating.. just because you think she is sensible and more language-pro than i am can give u the right to hurt me that bad.. i hate when im being looked down..im not angry at her but you.. yes you.. well u know wat, if im immatured and not somebody that is good at talking, then dun talk and consult me if you have probs anymore..cause even after all the times that i listened to you and helped you out, you still think that im just not good enuff.. go and talk to somebody else and not me.. enuff said..

8-11th june

2007-06-11T05:15:00.000-07:00

My weekends were spent rather interesting and fun.. had my Orchid Park Wind Orchestra band camp and the outing to sentosa with the people.. had to teach the sec 1 and helped out with the camp..

Friday
Met up with charlene and jannah first before proceeding to OPSS to check in to the camp.. reaching there, the wind orchestra was having rehearsal while the junior winds (sec 1) were having their footdrills.. so me and char headed to the basketball court to have footdrills with them.. guess wat?? theres this SOOOOOO CUTE sec 1 boy.. his name is Didi Fazlin and he is so cute...so short and has dimples on his cheek.. seriously he will grow to be a handsome kid... but too bad he is a bit mat-tish.. the sec 1's were abit terrible at footdrills.. nvm they have time to catch up from us.. after that we had more rehearsals.. we also watched movies at the staff lounge.. watched Pearl Habour, my all time fav... i thought i am the only fan but theres alot more that love that movie as well... then watched Shrek 2. ahaha! damn funny...

however, the night time was extremely boring.. i dunno wats wrong with the whole band cause all of them, i really mean all of them went straight to sleep lah.. and only left the alumnis and a few sec 4's.. we were so bored.. that we headed to the basketball court to sleep and gazed at stars.. we slept there from 2am to 4am..we then went back to class to continue class cause it was so cold there..

Saturday
today was the outing to sentosa.. met up with siti at ABC supermaket in the morning.. buy tidbits and stuffs before meeting hafiz, kat and AR at harbour front.. after all the buying of stuffs we then proceeded to sentosa via the sentosa express that i took for the first time.. ive always taken the bus instead.. there were alot of people actually.. really alot.. then we went to siloso beach.. and started eating and then swam around at the sea.. it was nice but the weather was really scorching hot that i got a sunburnt..

after the sentosa trip, we then went to eat at vivo at the top level.. it was nice as it was windy.. after that i headed back to school back to camp.. i was very tired but then theres more alumni that came to stay over.. we played poker till morning.. then slept at the parade square and again we headed back to class to sleep again as it was cold..

Sunday
More rehearsals today for the main band as there will be Prima Volta for the sec 1's.. me and char just kept on watchin movies at staff lounge as we are not performing for the concert.. watched silent hill.. its more of gore than horror lah.. haha!

then the mini concert started... actually, the band improved alot.. my double bass juniors are very good right now that i myself feel threatened.. cmon lydia.. i have to practice harder since im their senior and i wun wanna fall out.. :)

then at night, theres the camp finale.. the interesting part was only the auctioning of the items by the different groups.. looking at the stuffs that they got, it was so funny lah... and my cute Didi was so cute..must i really mention that again??hahaha..cause its obvious.. after the finale, some of the alumnis had to go back already.. and it was back to boredom.. me and jannah initially were the ones sleeping at the hall this night, and then suddenly hussaini, narisa and nicole joined us. i got my sleep for this night...

Monday
MAJOR TAN SHOULD REALLY DIE... this OM of mine is reall a bitch i tell u.. he always picked on the band.. he came in the morning to inspect our camp areas and guessed what hes not satisfy.. damn him!! every year, EVERY YEAR he always have to do this.. its not as if the school was in a havoc condition lah.. it was to me rather ordinary lah... but he just have to complain.. and this was what he said :"shame on you band members".. seriously he should go and die.. DOUBLE YOU TEE EFF!! and he said he saw a couple walking in the morning.. omg! since when our school became a one gender school.. cant a guy and girl walk together?? is he that old-minded? freak!!!! i hate him.. the alumnis will take revenge one day....

after that the alumnis facilatated with the games for the sec 1's.. oh my the sec 1's were really irritating.. but Didi is still so cute.. im gonna take pic with him one day and show to u people..after the camp, we went to buddy hoagies cafe to have our lunch and then we sat at the playground to talk..

that how i spent my whole weekend.. was fun but tiring... really tiring.. :)..
now is mugging time.. i really need to start mugging and study... bye peeps..
teddy, i miss you..

I love you

2007-06-03T05:09:00.000-07:00

teddy, specially dedicating this post to him.. yes you..

at first, u were just that boy next door.. nothing special, nothing great.. u walked past me a couple of times and i saw u, im sure we glanced each other but u were just plain, ordinary.. we are in the same school but yet u were not really there at first.. cause ure just you...

but as time passes by, i soon to realise my surrounding, including you.. i begin to notice you, i begin to see you more often (not that as if i have never seen u that often before).. but the encounter with u becomes more real.. more real that it soon turns me alive.. not only alive, but me having the life that i really want..

ure smile, ure laughter soon becomes clearer to my eyes.. even the slightest actions can bring a smile to my face...soon my heart takes a great leap... so great and deep that it is turning to a dream to me.. you are my fantasy.. my happiness... my joy... it seems eternity and oh i wish it can just stay this way..

but y is it you? y cant it be anybody else? y must it be the person that i didnt even notice at the beginning? y only now? argh!! i dont have the answer to it cause im sure that this comes truly from my heart... my pure heart..

however in this life, nothing comes perfect.. i know that its hard for me to overcome the fact that im just ur fellow schoolmate... i can just be that girl, and nothing more in your eyes.. i barely know you.. and you barely know me..

im just that ordinary girl and u on the other hand is so high, so high that u cant be able to notice me... i can never be in that position.. i can never... cause for all i know, im just lydia.. yes that lydia that u know... i know its dumb of me to even have the thought of being with u.. i know my dream of being with u is high and so faraway.. :(

however high up u are, trust me, ure still you.. and the person that i love is you and not the person that is high up there.. i love the real you.. yes you, teddy... i dun care what others may think.. i dun care what others may see..i dun care what others may say..for i know that ure the person that i love... the person that is able to cheer me up when im down.. the person that is able to motivate me and give me the strength..

i just wanna hold your hands.. i just wanna spend my time with you.. i just wanna be close to you.. i just wanna be in your arms.. and most importantly, i just wanna love you the bestest way i could.. to cherish and treasure you.. i love you...

with love, lyd

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sorry for that lengthy note for teddy.. im just feeling down lately for the fact that i think he knows abt it.. hes treating me differently.. i dont want that to happen.. the last thing that could happen is him not talking to me..

i browsed thru several blogs.. and ive come to realise that teddy is so high up while im so low.. :(.. i know that i cant match up to him and i know its crazy of me.. but nevertheless, i will still persevere.. nothing can be compared to the feelings that i have for him.. i truly and sincerely love him.. i hope he will soon realise the meaning of it...InsyaAllah...:)

2007-05-29T04:56:00.000-07:00

i know ive been a bad girl not updating my blog.. but im really busy for the past few weeks with sch.. since its the june hols, i will try to find time to update u people.. meanwhile, lets see wat ive been up to for the past few weeks..

had the school sports day recently.. and my house did great for the cheer..to bad we werent good to the eyes of the judges.. nevertheless go aquila! i saw teddy during the sports day events on the track.. since i sat near the finishing line im able to see the runners reaction.. teddy isnt in the same house as me.. but i know that deep inside im supporting him though..nyaha! call me traitor for all i care.. hahaha! and i saw him.. running.. and eventually he got second for one of the events.. i trying to act as if im not supporting him by keep on commenting "i dun care if teddy lose, cause im supporting my house" (and yar more or less thats wat i commented).. and siti was there beside me.. but she knows that im not speaking the truth.. and she was like "jgn bedek (dun lie), i know u still do care abt teddy"..ahaha! she knows me well hah.. i can see teddy's face disappointed when he got second.. but nevertheless, my teddy is still a champion to me..hear that teddy... no matter wat position u get, watever it is, i know that uve tried ur best and theres ntg to lose..:)

ok thats all for sports day.. im gonna have a band concert coming up.. and i hope people can come.. cause its gonna be my first and my last concert with the IJC peeps.. please come and support me ok people..

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i want you to go for my concert.. i want you to go out with me atleast a day during the hols.. i want you to support me thru this stress period.. i just want you to be mine.. but i know its hard.. and i'll try.. give me the chance and i will treasure u all the way..

oh my! a month not being able to see teddy.. nvm.. i can make it.. if i can wait for a year.. a month wun do much to me..

seriously, if you think im talking abt u... yes its u! just wan you to know tat u mean alot to me.. take care boy!

TEDDY-ku

2007-05-04T22:52:00.000-07:00

i noe that i havent been updating my blog for quite sometime.. sorry lah.. very busy with school.. anw, since i have free time now might as well update my blog..

last weekend i had band camp.. for my ijc band.. we had a combine band camp with the MI peeps.. so we had the camp from fri afternoon to sat afternoon.. it was fun though but a little lame actually..haha! i like the part when we played captains ball and my team was leading..yeay! so fun.. after that i headed to OP for my alumni band pract.. i was so tired cause i had insufficient sleep the night before.. but i still played a few songs though.. that night we planned to thon outside.. haha! me, jann, faris and shannon.. we headed to the place near jann and shannon housing estate there to thon.. faris and shannon kept on playing with their blades while me and jann talked abt stuffs and i shared sum stuffs abt teddy to her..nyaha! farhana on the other hand, like one pillow, was sleeping for the entire time ah.. haha! wats the purpose of thonning ah farhana? aiyoyo! haha.. anw it was fun though.. me, jann, faris and shannon talked abt our family and that i got to know more abt shannon's family line.. it was interesting.. we thon till the next day..

thats all abt it for my last weekend.. and for sch so far was ok.. i seriously need to wake up from me long sleep..damn it! A levels is like 6 months from now..but yet im still enjoying life the wat it is.. how worrying can it be? got a good wake up call from mr how for the whole class.. i really love mr how.. he really did wake me up though i still have my laziness traits with me.. but im trying ok.. i will make him proud and oso my parents.. i noe my mum has been bugging me about studying hard and all.. yeah.. i know i have her interest at heart.. thanks mom.. but im trying ok... just have faith in me.. i will try my best..

this week has been alrite to me.. with teddy as my motivation for going to sch.. hes forever there and im happy.. thanks for cheering me up teddy though u didnt realise it.. i love him! and guess what happened? he did something so cute that make me realise how special he can be.. let me tell u:
i was on the way back to class after PE with sufi.. i was walking passed the PE room and then passed the canteen.. i was walking down the stairs to the canteen and i saw him sitting alone with his food on the table.. i was shocked.. he saw me and i saw him too.. but then i turned away as i dowan to smile and be happy for no reason cause he will think im crazy.. so sufi was the one that looked at him and tried to see wat he was doing.. u know wat.. he was looking down and was saying his prayer before eating.. omg!! i mean he did that ok.. i mean it may not be a big deal but he prayed even when he was sitting alone.. and it was cute to see a guy like him do such a thing.. sufi told me and i cant help myself but to say out loud how cute he is.. even sufi finds it cute ok.. hahahaha! i love him! he has his heats for the sports day.. go teddy.. even if ure not in the same house as me i will support you all the way. i know u can do it.. watever happens ure still a champion to me.. jia you teddy!

haiz.. teddy.. :)

thats all folks! bye2

Confused Girl?? well not!!

2007-04-25T05:34:00.000-07:00

as i gazed outside the classroom window, i felt so upset.. i duno why im feeling this way..

honestly,
- i miss the times that i talked to you
- i miss the times that we stared at each other's face
- i miss the times that we went home together
- i miss the bus rides
- i miss the train rides
- i miss the time that we walked together
- i miss the times that you smiled at me like theres no other Goddess in the world
- i miss the times that we talked on the phone like theres no tmr
- i miss the times that we shared and spent together

simple to say, i miss being with you..

im so sorry teddy.. im really sorry..

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but as i took the bus back home today alone, i thought to myself...

actually its not him dat i miss..its just dat i miss having dat special someone.. that someone that will fill my life with colours..

i miss the hugs
i miss the kisses
i miss the holding of hands
i miss the walks
i miss the laughter
i miss the late night phone calls
i miss the waits
i miss the smile
i miss the playful pranks that we do to each other
i miss the concern that you can give
i miss the tender care
i miss the time that you take care of me like im your precious being

i just miss having that special someone that can take care and love me the way i do...
talking abt the special someone.. i thought abt TEDDY.. oh well.. as i sat inside the bus alone, i watched the scene outside the bus and was thinking abt TEDDY.. and the feeling of having TEDDY around make me forget abt the misses that i have for you..and the thought abt TEDDY just makes me more stronger and realised the fact that i shouldnt hold on to my past.. and better let it go..

TEDDY,

you cheer me up when im down
you make me smile
you make me laugh
you make me love you more
i love you teddy...!

A penny for my thought?

2007-04-21T21:41:00.000-07:00

i duno y but i just love these pics. taken a period before PE. infront of the canteen. so mangkuk that i think evryone shud try it too. haha

hello world. my school will be the most hectic place ever. with so much programmes for me. STAR, ReAP, lit remedial, geog remedial.. im going to have my own econs and maths remedial at home.. omg! this is so happening.. haha! but its ok.. i rather suffer now than suffer in my later years though. ok. enough about sch and studies. lets talk abt real stuffs now. ahaha!

a penny for my thought anione? alrite. lets start with frens. haha.. theres a lot of politics among my classmates. till it became so bad that our civic tutor had to come in and settle it together. changed of seating plan for my class and i totally love my new seating plan. haha.. aniway more rules are being implemented for my class so as to ensure that everybody is happy. :)

lets now talk abt teddy. i have alot of stuffs to talk abt teddy but i shud just keep it to myself. cause.. its ok.. i have my reasons for doing so. as long as im happy and everybody is, then i shud just mind him for myself. since im the one that has feelings for him, well i shud just watch and love him for all i care without anione. cause i think striving on my own is still the best. :) i would love to thank amin for his support though. really appreciate it, fren. :). and to the rest out there, thanks.. but come to think of it, i rather strive on my own. actually ive been the one handling my own affairs. i mean seriously. if i ever to get teddy, its all because of me and the faith that i have in myself. now is the phase where im the one initiating it myself. and im happy that i can find the courage to do so with the help of frens too. i wun forget frens that have helped me so far.

trust me. watever happens, be it bad or good, it can never make me change my mind and regret my decision. cause deep inside i know that i love teddy. i cant force love to come but i cant force love to not come either. as quoted by amin and hafiz: "go lydia! and dun give up!"

my sincere thoughts. :)

OPWO

2007-04-09T05:49:00.000-07:00

hello!
let me update abt AR's bdae party on friday. it was initially planned to celebrate it at marina bay.. but then due to the amount of food that we need to prepare and bring for AR, we decided to celebrate it at changi beach instead. it was still nice though..

me and siti met up at abt 10:15am to go to kat's house to helpher prepare the food that we decided to make for AR. so this was the menu for the day. cream pasta, doughnut with nutella topping, brownie, chocolate cake with cheese icing, cookies and pizza. im the miss doughnut, siti is miss chocolate cake and kat is miss pasta.. haha! hafiz was just the food tester.. luckily my doughnut was nice..hehe!:)

so when we reached the beach, we just waited for AR and a few other frens to arrive before the whole party proceeded. then we played alot of games.. TO HAFIZ: i won okae! stopy denying it. i won the poking the cheek game.. nyaha! after so much eating, seriously we had a lot of food lah, we walked along the beach.. it was already night then.. so it was kinda dark. then we sat by the beach.. me, siti and hafiz.. then we left the place at about 9pm.. took a bus back to tamp.. guess wat?? i got this ulat that stucked at my jeans ah.. at first i thought it was a stick but then..eiwwwww!! i was freaked out cause i was about to touch the thing and then it moved.. so disgusting. luckily got hafiz..nyaha!

so we headed back to tamp to take 39 that goes all the way back to yishun.. that was it.. AR's bdae party..it was nice.. i rate it 7.5/10

alrite.. i actually wanna dedicate this post to my dearest ORCHID PARK WIND ORCHESTRA juniors..:)

TO OPWO,
guys this is it.. the last phase.. the title "GOLD WITH HONOUR" will have to renew on the 10th of April.. and i strongly believe u guys can do it.. if we could do it back then, y cant u guys?? show it to all those assholes who think that our band got the title by luck.. well.. too bad..atleast we did get wat we want.. atleast we created history by being the first COP - certificate of participation band to jump to Gold with Honour band within 2 years.. come on ppl! i really believe you guys have the potential to sustain the title.. i have faith and so do the rest of the alumni band members.. we suffered alot and we have to prove to ppl that we are a band that has its magic..

remember those times that we had to face the school, class teachers and even the bitches that do not support us, and i bet till today.. we had to give up our band room to the choir members.. and had to pathetically extended our band room and squeezed all the instruments.. we had to practice in weird environment like the school foyer.. we even had to travel all the way to the 3rd level AVA room cause the music room which is at the 2nd level had to be occupied by either the dance or the choir.. y?? cause they got silver and us..just COP. remember the time that we had to bring mr tan, our patient conductor, back to teach us cause we were so bad that he was on the verge of giving up.. that were so many turmoils and disagreements that arised along the way.. but yet, we persevered... we practiced and had sectional everyday.. the morning practices that we had to attend everyday 6am in the morning.. all those saturday long practices.. yes we did budge and complain but all those practices and sufferings were worthwhile.. and then 2005, where we proved those asses that we are something and not just a trash of the school..
remember the day of our syf.. the day that we believed that we should make it happen.. the day that all of us broke down in tears of joy including me.. the day that we thought that it can never happen too soon.. but it did.. the day that we can see the ultimate strenghts of our band.. well this was the day that all our hard work paid of.. the day that i can never erase from my memory.. the tears and hugs of joy and happiness. i really love to see our band in that state.. and i really want you guys to experience it.. trust me.. its just wonderful.. :).. i can never forget it.. i can never...

to my beloved double bass section, you guys are so much better.. i really believe that you ppl can do it.. me and christopher and also amelia will be behind you all the way.. whatever happens, i really love you ppl and that we are the best..im sad that i cant be there to support you but trust me i will pray hard for the best.. just believe in yourselves.. go candy and siti!!!!!!!
cmon ppl.. just put in ur heart and soul.. this is the last journey.. put in the extra effort.. add the magic to your music and show it to the judges that OPWO can do it.. we can do it!! remember.... ONE BAND, ONE SOUND!!! love you OPWO..

love lyd.. ex OPWO and am still proud that i was once a OPWO member... :)

my weekend

2007-04-02T02:35:00.000-07:00

hello world!

let me update abt wat happened for the last weekend..

saturday
today is the day that we are celebrating hafiz's belated birthday surprise.. actually this was the initial plan.. me and siti supposed to ask hafiz to come to khatib and train us for running.. at yishun stadium.. then the rest, like kat, AR and all their other frens will be setting up the bbq at bottle tree park which is near the stadium.. we thought we can bring hafiz from the stadium to the bottle tree park to walk2 first then we give him the surprise.. but then..hahahahahahaha!! the plan changed..

so here goes. everybody was kinda late including me.. cause we were supposed to meet hafiz at 5 but then we dragged till 7pm ah.. actually it was because of the weather..if it didnt rain the intial plan will resume.. but then.. its ok actually.. thank God that it stopped soon.. so the rest of us except hafiz and his fren, zhafir met up at khatib at abt 6pm.. then we separated.. siti stayed at khatib and so-called wait for hafiz and then lied to him saying that im late.. so this can so-called buy time for kat to buy her stuffs.. then i brought leea and syamil to the place and they will take care of the stuffs before kat reached and then set up the bbq.. then i quickly went back to the train station to meet hafiz, siti and zhafir.. haha! so we walked to the stadium.. hafiz was like talking abt his new running shoes that he bought and he cant wait to use it for running.. me and siti laughed but we just acted cool.. haha! we reached the stadium.. i thought there was a soccer match but actually it was just training.. we thought initially we lied to hafiz to detour to bottle-tree park instead to jog.. but then we had no choice cause the track can be used.. then me and siti like stress.. really stress!!! at one point of time i said "im stress".. oppss! and hafiz heard ah.. then he was like pestering to tell him wat happened.. but then i just kept quiet.. haha.. so we quickly came up with an idea.. we told hafiz to wait for kat cause she last minute coming to meet us to run oso.. hahah! then we kinda decided to run at bottle tree park instead.. but then hafiz made it difficult for us lah.. he kept on asking us to go and run at the track.. he even changed ah..hahahahahah!! he asked us to do warm up while waiting for kat.. but the thing is WE DIDNT BRING OUR RUNNING SHOES!! so we just ignored him....hahaha! pity him..

then we brougt him to the bottle tree park after so much pestering from me, siti and zhafir.. hahahahaha!!

then he saw them and SURPRISE!! haha.. then the birthday party started from there.. phew!! luckily we didnt give up cause really, I MEAN REALLY.. hafiz was so difficult to convince lah..aiyo!!

then we had bbq and we played fire-works..haha! it was nice.. siti's cupcakes were so nice ah.. should make more especially for my bdae.. nyahaha!!

we also sat down at this mat that kat bought.. it was nice atmosphere.. we played games and talked and talked and talked.. it was nice though..

i rate the bdae surprise: 8/10

so there it went..haha!

SUNDAY
today is the day that i got worse ever PT with siti, FREAKINGLY BOSSY-PUSHY-NEVER GIVE CHANCE HAFIZ and the oh-so-sweet zhaf (hear that hafiz) nyahaha!!

so met up with siti, hafiz, kat and zhaf at tamp interchange at 5pm. but then kat had to left straightaway cause she had to go out with her family.. so we headed to tamp stadium to start our run.. so we got ready and changed.. the first set of exercise was to run one round around the stadium as a warm up.. then after that we ran around tamp.. it was like a distance of 2.4 km.. oh boy!! that run was very tiring with hafiz forever pushing me and kept calling my name "lydia...dont stop"... but zhaf is nice.. he kept on encouraging me and siti to not give up in a very nice way..nyahaha!! after the run, we went back to the stadium to continue with our sprintings..

we had to run 4 x 400m in a timing of less than 3 mins, 3 x 300m in a timing of 2.45mins, 2 x 200m in a timing of 2.35mins and 1 x 100m in a timing of less than 2.25 mins.. it was so tiring lah.. and hafiz really never gave chance.. wahlao!! i went to the toilet oso then he asked me to do jumping-jack. i was so tired that i said i can do the jumping jack after the run.. but then he langsung never give chance and asked me to do on the spot.. huh!! after the whole sprinting, we had to do this funny-leg-exercise.. hahahahahhahahahahahahha! it was very funny especially when we were already tired.. i was like about to fall.. and hafiz kept on saying "lydia...........".. wahlao.. he really sounds like my father seh.. but i still think its not fair.. cause the guys never run..

after the strenuous run, we then headed to hafiz's void deck to chill.. we took a cab there.. then we sat under his void while he went home to take food for us.. me and siti wanted to talk to zhafir but then he was sleeping.. nyaha! then hafiz came down abt 5mins later.. then we ate like bangla.. i mean literary like bangla..im serious!!! hahahahahah! we sat on the cement floor of the void deck and ate our dinner.. hahahahahahhaaha!!! then after the dinner.. we played the eating the tomatoes game... hahahaha.. siti had to eat the tomatoes first and then followed by zhafir..hahaha! he ate it like as if it is in fear factor like that..nyaha! then we started to head back home..

initially hafiz supposed to send us back to the bus stop oso but then his leg hurts so he left half way.. but zhaf stayed with us.. how sweet! he sent me and siti all the way to the bus stop seh.. we then asked him to go back since he sent us to the bus stop oredi.. but then he said "its ok".. he stayed till the bus reached ah.. sweet kan? and the cute part is when he even went to ask the bus driver just to make sure that we took the right bus... :)...

so that it went.. after that i seriously am dead beat after the run.. but overall..i had an enjoyable time spending with siti, hafiz and zhafir.. minus the part where hafiz kept on saying "lydia....."..nyahahahahahahah!

Wed-Blues

2007-03-28T20:53:00.000-07:00

hello ppl!

now im in sch..and im just bored. i feel like blogging now though. just finished my BORING lit lecture.. i feel like uploading pics to my blog cause it seems to be picture-less..

btw, i have a fairy name: Bramble Yewfrost.. hahaha!! cute! bye2!

i love teddy.. but i very sad..cause he got bungkus..nyahahahahahah!

Sunday = boring??

2007-03-25T00:31:00.000-07:00

today i had to stay home cause stg happened to my feet.. i stepped on this metal thing at home and it kinda cut my feet.. luckily its not directly at the centre of my feet but at the side..and im oso lucky that i didnt step on some rusted metal.. phew!! so can still wear shoe tmr but gonna be painful i guess.. u noe rite?? im scared of pain.. i cant get myself in pain and i oso cant see other ppl get in pain.. cause i will feel the pain as well..

anws...i played PS2 with my younger bro since i had ntg to do.. now i just feel like blogging.. ytd had alumni band pract.. it was as usual boring with a few ppl turned up.. but i still enjoyed myself playing my bass..

tmr will be a new term for us after the so-hectic-but-i-kinda-dun-give-a-damn-with-the-results of my block test..ok..i lied.. i do care a abt my results.. but some papers were disappointing though.. but nevertheless this is just the beginning.. must work hard for the REAL thing..

i want chocolates now.. im craving for chocolates seh especially my favourite "RITTER SPORTS CORNFLAKES".. i also feel like eating ice cream.. errrr..... oi stomach! y must u make me crave for all the wrong stuffs??

lets talk abt teddy.. i think its been quite sumtimes since i really blog abt teddy properly in my blog.. ok.. lets update! teddy has been becoming extremely cute for the past few days.. alamak, y must he be so cute?? hes just irresistable to look at.. hahaha! talked to him a couple of times..not alot though..but still talk ok? actually not much updates abt teddy.. hes just my teddy.. my circle of clique that knows hu is teddy is getting bigger.. my classmate's guys are beginning to know abt my teddy.. audi, amin, vicky, the mly girls in my class, afi, bad, shahirah and theres more actually.. hahaha! its ok.. as long as they dun make a big fuss over it.. come to think of it, i think teddy knows abt it oredi.. maybe.. but im not sure either.. hehe!

as quoted by sufi "hes my bungkus boy rite now"hahahaha! but i still prefer calling him my teddy!

love lyd!

block test finally over!

2007-03-23T05:31:00.000-07:00

yeay! yippee!! yoohoo!!! block test finally over.. phew! it was tough for some papers but hopefull im able to do reasonably well for any of my subjects.. but its not entirely over.. prelim 1 and 2 will be coming rite up..haiz! thats JC life ppl.. full of tests and exams esp for year 2.. anw.. im still not regreting that ive choosen this path for my education.. "suffer for only 8 months more, and u can enjoy for ur entire life without much worries"..quoted by beloved mr how, my econs tutor.. its true actually.. we just need to push ourselves for another 8 only 8 more mths before u get to enjoy.. i will wan to get to sumwhere after all the hard work that ive put in.. go lydia!

anws, today had PE.. luckily its just 2.4 running and not interval.. i will die if its interval.. 2 weeks nvr run confirm my stamina has gone bad.. but my timing was not dat bad actually.. haha! napfa is in 2 weeks time.. nxt week will be J1 camp so there wun be any PE lessons but i want to train with my classmates.. and play games with them.. hehe!

theres cca fair today.. but its as usual very boring.. but luckily my booth is situated near teddy's training area.. so can see him train oso.. hehe! talking abt teddy.. i am still happy and not regreting that i like him.. hes just so cute! hehe! laplap teddy!

bye2!

random

2007-03-18T03:06:00.001-07:00

http://www.secret-loves.com/index.php?test=486459

a break from intensive mugging

2007-03-16T03:45:00.000-07:00

hello ppl!

its been quite sumtime since i last blogged abt aniting.. anw.. ive been busy mugging for the block test this coming week.. i have the feeling that im gonna fail my GP cause i wasnt able to finish the paper.. so there goes the marks for one of my subjects.. thats y im concentrating on other of my subjects..

im so tired and i really need to take a break.. furthermore, i miss him.. i really miss him..:(

Monday
i went to sch today to study with amin, sufi, siti, afi and shahira.. we stayed till abt 6 and then headed back.. i saw teddy.. thank goodness!

Tuesday
i went to sch again with the same peeps to study.. this time i went to sch alone..and guess what.. i bumped into teddy the first thing i reached school.. we said hello to each other and he was damn cute.. :).. sat down with amin only cause siti and sufi were having sum council meeting.. and guess wat?? amin knows abt teddy oredi.. i was apparently looking at him and amin saw it..hahaha!! its alrite.. more guys are beginning to know abt my teddy...

Wednesday
i came to sch again.. i thought i would be able to see teddy longer today but nope.. he left quite early.. today me, shahira and siti didnt really study.. the three of us were just damn lazy to mug oredi.. we played soccer at the futsal court lah and even went to watch the basketball match.. hahah! me and siti made this list of nicknames for the cute guys/ oklah maybe not really cute but just nicknames that we are going to use to call these guys..

~teddy - this is my one and only teddy!!
~babyface - this guy really has cute babe face
~seksa - another meaning would be sexy..haha.. hot body..
~sexy legs - a runner that has sexy legs.. this is for siti
~sexy legs look-a-likey - he looks like the sexy legs
~comel - siti finds this guy cute
~a-minah - this is amin
~we WISH you a merry xmas - this is for audi
~AR - this one kat confirm like
~commando - this guy really looks like our commando when we visited the SAFTI
~booboo - our info-comm guy that always race with us for GP lecture seat..

haha..thats all.. some are cute but some are just nicknames that we imposed to them..hahahahahahaha!!

i miss teddy ppl.. i want to see him.. i really miss him.. bye2.. laplap..

im back again

2007-03-08T05:29:00.000-08:00

well i did mention in my previous post that my next entry will be after the block test..but!! haha.. im back!!

well...this goes to anione that read my previous post.. im sorry if im too harsh,,

to siti.. im sorry if i hurt you aniway.. i noe you care alot abt me and im thankfum enuff.. i really am grateful..

as for teddy.. i have a feeling you know abt it oredi.. i know that he might have a known abt me liking him.. but its alrite.. im cool..

gdluck peeps!!!

is it wrong?

2007-03-07T04:26:00.000-08:00

i wonder if its wrong to like someone?? isnt love free?? y must i lie to myself and act differently when you're in love?? cant i get my my chance of enjoying this "love" feeling when i can?? must i be quiet if i see someone i love dearly walked past me or stg?? must i be just dumb and not say aniting?? y cant i enjoy this when im still at this age?? am i right??

experience love first before you can understand the position im in.. its no pain, no gain.. if you want result, then suffer first.. im sorry..im just an idealist.. and hafiz knows best what that means.. whatever happens, i will try to get what i want.. if you think im unreasonable, well theres no success without trying..am i rite?? i dun mind getting hurt or get rejected...atleast im proud to say that i did try and did experience what is to love someone... isnt it better this way?? oh for goodness sake, whatever happens i will still love him alrite? till im very sure that theres no chance for me with him... cmon lah its not as if my world evolves around him.. its just that he makes me happy.. well is it wrong for me to find my happiness by loving someone?? if tis is over exaggerated of me liking him..well i can only say that this is love... if you love or like someone, everything abt him just makes you happy..

i duno y i just had to say all these in my blog.. im more worried for this than not being able to get teddy.. cause its really affecting me.. i cant make myself to forget him and thats for sure.. im sorry if im too harsh..but i just wanna get my points clear and straight.. cause its kinda irritate me to a certain extent.. but im thankful to have my family and frens that do care abt me.. :).. its just that i rather get this feeling cleared before aniting.. i dowan to be a liar, hyprocrite or watever.. its better for me to convey my real feelings here than just keep it to myself.. well what are blogs for rite?? :)

anws.. block test is in a week time.. extreme mugging in progress.. maybe my nxt update will be after the block test..haha.. maybe okae.. so till then, goodluck people for you exams.. laplap:)

what is wrong with my teddy?

2007-03-04T14:37:00.000-08:00

what is wrong with my teddy?

ytd, i waited for teddy to be online.. and i was sleepy..so i slept for an hour and then got back online to see if hes there.. i woke up at 12am..and i saw him.. i was happy.. but i thought i shudnt talk to him immediately.. so i waited for like a few minutes.. and then hes offline all of a sudden.. aiyo! i was sad that i didnt get to talk to him..

so just now i saw him again.. and i tried talking to him..but guess wat he never reply.. i just asked a simple question.. wats wrong with him? its okae... i will just wait and see..

teddy, do you notice me?? cause i always do....

Mummy's Bdae

2007-03-03T13:05:00.000-08:00

today is my mummy's bdae.. i woke up in the morning to wish her happy birthday.. i think i was the first person to wish her okae.. so proud of myself.. anws.. i gave her two kisses on both cheeks.. am i a sweet daughter??hehe!!

later in gonna buy bdae cake... gonna have a small party at home with lotsa foods.. haha.. im so happy if theres foods..haha!

i will update soon after the whole "party" okae.. bye2!!

btw, is my new skin nice?? =)

Mummy's Bdae Part 2

2007-03-03T04:27:00.000-08:00

now im at home with my parents onli.. my two bros went out to watch soccer at some place.. they watching liverpool vs arsenal if im not wrong.. watever lah k.. im not dat a crazy fan of english soccer.. im onli a big fan of ijc soccer team.. haha! obvious reason..my teddy is the one playing..

anws we had dinner as a whole family including my sis, my bro-in-law and my bro's girlfren.. before tht me and bro helped mother cooked the foods.. my bro cooked some chicken thingy with cheese.. he boasted in front of his gerl saying that its nice..well..it is nice actually. we ate like alot food together.. kak nura' my bro's gf brought some jelly and its super yummy.. then we ate cake too..i bought the cake okae..hehe!

after that was the cam-whoring session.. we laughed alot seh..then the whole family went to look at photos..like old photo albums about my family.. kak nura said i look cute when i was small..hehe..i so happy..:).. then she got to see my bro when hes young.. haha! my bro didnt let her see the photos of him lah.. he was embarrased of course.. but in the end kak nura got to see..and she laughed like nobody business man..hahahahahahah!!!

after that we sat at the living room watching tv... and now they left oredi...it was a great day today.. i didnt go for alumni pract though.. i miss my sec sch bass now.. 3 weeks never touch leh.. i hate innova's bass.. damn out of tune... i miss playing as a whole band again.. i miss competions.. im so looking forward with the end of the year International Band Competition in Genting.. haha! hopefully can get first again! haha....

this weekend i want to start mugging for my block test.. i did some qns on geog..and im proud of it..hehehehe... where is teddy? i didnt get to talk to him ytd and apparently im missing him now..hehe...

A lvl results and career guidance

2007-03-02T05:13:00.000-08:00

okae.. today is the release of the A level results.. okae..as for me, i got back my mly results.. ok.. i got C for my mly okae.. actually i duno whether to feel happy or sad.. its a result that is never here or there.. so i wasnt too sure to be happy anot.. but im dead serious of not retaking my mly again.. cause i think its already my best and i cant afford to lose my precious curriculum time to study mly.. so i rather forgo and be happy with the results that i got..

so today.. we got the results at about 12.40 pm.. but before that, during our econs lecture, we heard the announcement being made by our P about the J3 results.. and guess wat?? they did extremely well.. unexpected for a new JC like ours.. we are now of the same standard with the middle group JC.. which is a very very good sign for a new JC like ours.. we beated YJC i guess so.. so well done INNOVA!! im so proud for my J3.. and now the pressure is back to us.. we are so-called the better batch as compared to the J3..so there will be a higher expectation of our results.. furthermore, they put so much effort in our PW as compared to the J3.. therefore, in the end we still have to produce similar results if can even better.. anws.. im still happy for them..

okae..back to our release of our results.. okae..the tension in my class was so tense up.. saw ppl crying and sum happy.. but..i tink its really a reality check for our class.. i think after all the cries, my classmates are better prepared for the A levels hopefully.. to me.. i have to really2 buck up and start studying.. theres no more playing ard...cause J2 life is seriously the most stressful period of time.. we really have to push ourselves.. after the reality check message from mr how, i really need to get myself to study.. furthermore, after visiting the career guidance fair, i see the importance of obtaining excellent results.. therefore...cmon LYDIA!!

anws.. we went to the career fair today at suntec.. it was okae..but kinda boring.. after that we headed to marina square for our dinner at KFC.. haha!! u noe, me, leea and kat went to order our food at this counter... then this guy..i think hes crazy...kat asked whether if theres regular ice milo.. then guess wat he said back.."theres onli one size...like your sch uniform"we were like ???????.....huh?? wth? so we ignored..then kat asked for the chicken ribs and he said "okae chicken rib like your uniform" @#$@$%##@... we were like huh??? again.. hes totally crazy.. i saw this guy before but he worked at other fast food restaurants then..omg!! thats crazy.. i wonder how cum ppl can still hired him..

after that..theres this fair inside marina square about the army force.. haha!! went to look ard and kpo abit.. i thought i would be able to see teddy..cause..teddy..you noe how hes like...hes interested in these kinda stuffs.. then theres show about their combat training..watever it is.. haha! good skills for me to beat my big bro..haha!

then i went home to talk about it to my big bro..and he aksked me to demonstrate..and i was like "what!!" u think i noe is it??? then he taught me sum basic skills to protect myself..haha! so we were like "haiyah!!...haiyah!!"..and my mum was like shouting at us,,"what are you doing??!!so noisy lah!!" haha! it was funny shit! then my big bro commented about one advertisement abt the air force.. haha!! thats funny but i wun wanna elaborate it...haha..

before i end.. today i did interval training for 5 rounds..damn tiring..but im happy that i managed to improve my timing.. used to run like half a round for 1min10sec but today it was like 55sec.. so i was satisfied after the run.. hehe! but still i need to further train myself for napfa.. can u help us hafiz?? thanks!okae bye!

Esplanade trip

2007-02-25T22:00:00.000-08:00

Okae..it is time for blogging man.. ytd I went out wit my frens to esplanade to chill before our exams.. went to meet siti at khatib as usual first before meeting the rest.. so we decided to meet at raffles place station.. so we reached there like exactly 6pm.. then we waited for the rest.. hafiz reached about 5 mins after us.. then met up with kat and AR there too.. so we then walked to esplanade.. it was a very nice evening..nice weather and good crowd..

The first thing we reached esplanade was to fill our stomachs.. hahaha.. I was hungry but then we just ate like only nachos and shared the drinks.. we were forever cam-whoring..haha..pretty2 us!!! We were like disturbing people that walked past us..hahaha..funny seh..gt like “boy bands”..u noe wat I mean.. the mats… After that we sat near the esplanade bay..AR had to go off early..so me and siti waited for Kat and Hafiz cause they went to send AR off.. after that we met up again..

We then sat at the very corner of esplanade bay.. it was very nice.. with great music and environment, the whole experience was so perfect.. actually we didn’t know that they will be fireworks ytd.. so while we were busy discussing about some personal issues together..BOOM!!! it was like sudden ah the fireworks.. we then stopped our conversation and then we went to watch the fireworks.. it was so pretty!!! It was kinda scary cause we sat kinda near the place where the fireworks were being lauched(whatever the word is)… so it was though the fireworks were dropping on us… they were so huge.. and the sound of the fireworks so damn loud.. but it was very pretty and fun!! Then the fireworks ended like after 10mins.. so we then continue our conversation.. all of us were busy massaging each other lah while talking..very nice and peaceful until some RUDIES sat like near ur.. they were making like a great hell of a nuisance ah.. but we just like dun care.. thank God we had Hafiz..me, siti and kat dun dare to sit at such place without guys.. cause we like have no where to run if sth happens.. yah.. so Hafiz was like a saviour..hahaha… k dah.. jgn nk kembang eh.. so.. after that we left the place..and headed back to the train station.. we separated..

It was a very enjoyable outing.. it would have been better if teddy was there.. I really wanna watch fireworks with him one day.. or just go out with him.. nvm.. have to be patient.. cause patience is the best virtue for me.. I really am happy enuff that teddy is still talking and noticing me in sch though.. oh well.. I cant expect much rite? All these small interactions are good enuff for me.. I only hope that it can develop into sth better.. i have to wait.. and continue perservering… I lap you teddy…

A dream

2007-02-24T01:31:00.000-08:00

i was actually sleeping since like 10.45pm..after like waiting for teddy to be online.. so i went to go sleep first and planning to wake up abit later.. anws, i slept.. and i dreamt abt teddy.. he was having a conversation with me telling me that he wun be able to make it for tmr's outing.. and guess wat?? i woke up immediately after he said that in my dream.. i quickly went online to see if hes online.. the first person that talked to me was him.. anD guess wat again?? he said he cant make it as he has stg on... weird? but true you know... it made me thinking and i thought it would be better to blog abt it.. you know..its like he wants to tell me but cant cause i was nt online and im sleeping.. and me on the other hand..wants to know his ans whether hes gg anot.. and it all links up to a dream..

cmon people you have to say sth abt wat had just happened...cause im like feeling 'whoah' rite now.. tag me abt it ok....

anw, i watched the first part of pearl harbor just now.. omg! so sweet of 'danny' (the character's name) played by josh hartnett, to bring his gerl out to watch sunsets with him being the pilot to his plane.. how romantic can it be?? i hope one day i will be getting such wonderful sightseeings from my 'boy' one day... awwww!!! to end...josh hartnett is so cute.. you ppl should watch pearl harbor cause its like one of my favourite movies of all time..

Happy Cina New Year

2007-02-17T05:10:00.000-08:00

its gonna be a freaking long holiday and i dun like it at all.. you all may think im crazy but i seriously dun like holidays.. cause for the obvious reason..I CANT SEE TEDDY MEDDY!!!! damn! this really sucks.. oh well..what to do? life has to go on without him at my sight.. anws.. talking abt teddy.. sumone told me to be more..like...you know..not just talk on msn onli but oso msg his hp.. hahahaha.. vicky told me to msg him lah.. but like...i think its a bit too fast ah.. should relac i think.. anws i hope sooner or later i will be able to talk to teddy better.. hehehehehehehehehe..

anws....i got ntg to update.. im wishing all my chinese frens..Gong Xi Fa Cai!!! may you share your hongbao with me..hahaha

Happy Valentines Day

2007-02-14T05:12:00.000-08:00

today is the 14th feb and it is v-dae..okae..ntg much happened in school..well.. singles still rule okae.. so on this day, i received tons of chocolates from my classmates..awwww...i didnt know my class boys are so sweet..they bought chocolates for the whole class.. i felt bad nt preparing aniting for them..but really im broke and got no time to do all these pressies..

in the morn i saw teddy oredi..walking past my class and oso saw him in the canteen.. today they had a soccer match against SRJC.. i was there to support my teddy.. i hope he is touch seeing me always supporting him watever activities he is involve in.. i duno y..but i think he knows that i like him.. he nvr once approached me or smile at me..its always me smiling to him first.. is he shy? then y arent he shy towards my frens? y can he talk and smile to them naturally but not ME? i think he knows and he is keeping a distant from me.... SHIT! i really dowan this to happen.. i already experience it once and i dowan to experience it again.. i rather him not knowing if he is going to react this way.. i still duno y is it so hard for him to just smile at me first.. its always me.. but if my frens he can easily smile to them.. y??????? i feel stress thinking abt him..

i really like looking at him in sch cause it makes me happy.. anws, i wun give up on him.. i will still regard him as my bestest teddy ever.. haiz!!! i want to know what is on your mind teddy..

i was kinda sad that teddy didnt come for my band concert.. i really want him to come but he didnt..haiz!! i think im drifting further away from teddy... oh please... i dowan that to happen.. haiz!!

enuff said...today's lessons were sleepy for me and the teachers....double you tee eff.....

Happy valentines day everyone..thanks for the chocolates people! really appreciate it...

concert anione?

2007-02-02T23:04:00.000-08:00

today is my school official opening.. oh well..im supposed to go to replace mouse but then i decided better not.. cause.. firstly you must wear sch tie, and then you must also wear cod shoes which is a big NO-NO.. my cod shoes are small.. amiways it was a last minute request.. i scared i will do sth wrong cause i nvr attend any of the rehearsals at all.. so i rather stayed at home..

i dunoe whether my frens finish the official opening oredi..well..i guess they finished oredi since its so late.. i dunoe whether we are still going out tmr.. actually..tmr our sch soccer team will be having a match against some other JC i guess.. but aniways my teddy will be playing tmr..so i hope for the best for him..

okae..our sch carnival is like next week..and i havent really sell the funfair tix yet.. gus wat? you must sell all 10 tix by yourselves.. i dunoe how..but its compulsory..so unreasonable right.. sumore must by the tshirt for the carnival.. double you tee effffff........ so please help me frens..thanks!!!

the day after the carnival, i will be having my OPAW concert..so please come aite..details are below..

OPAW CONCERT

WHEN: 11TH FEB - SUNDAY-

WHERE: LEE FOUNDATION THEATER (NAFA HALL)

TICKET PRICE: $10

ANIONE INTERESTED? PLEASE CONTACT ME VIA HP, EMAIL ME OR JUST TAG ON MY TAG BOARD..

REPERTOIRE: EAGLE BEND, SPIRITED AWAY, MERRY WIDOW AND MORE.....

Thank goodness its friday

2007-01-26T14:46:00.000-08:00

im in school rite now inside my class.. with kat, leea, lav and AR.. teddy is in the canteen eating..alah cute nyer.. i saw him studying just now.. so hardworking.. i actually wanna ask him about my concert whether he wanna cum anot..

this week has been a very hectic week.. last wed was cross-country.. the terrain was damn bad that i nearly fell like for.....ermmm...alot of times. but nearly only..haha..after my run rite, i went to go on cheering for the JC1 AND JC2 boys.. actually its more for the JC2 oys for like...ermmm obvious reason.. i saw teddy meddy came in the *****(i wun tell) position..wow!!!(it means its fantabulous result)..

after that rite, me, afi, shahirah, bad and yvonne went to eat at J8 KFC.. i was eating peacefully untillllllll........teddy meddy came with his frens.... of all places he came there to eat.. and he sat directly behind our table.. omg!!! when he came, i seriously cannot eat oredi.. i was hungry initially but then i suddenly felt full.. so i was trying my best to eat while smiling..haha! hes just cute!!!

im sad this week after sth happened at home.. okae.. im not gonna further elaborate it.. okae bye!!!

im bored and i just feel like updating

2007-01-14T21:12:00.000-08:00

okae..i noe im supposed to study rite now but im just too lazy lah.. i noe i will regret not starting it early but i dun have the mood okae..

this is to usha..
im so sorry.. that i didnt write ur name for the ppl that wished me bdae.. hehe

okae..im just bored..and i totally miss teddy meddy.. i dunoe where he is seh.. i mean i dun see him online for like the past few weeks.. so hard to talk to him.. i can just see him in sch and probably smile at him..:).. anws, last sat, my sis had sum "kenduri" at her house.. so i helped her since fri.. booboo!! i left my milk at her house fridge lah.. theres still alot and now i really want to drink milk..

ive been coughing and sneezing for the past few days.. while typing this post oso, my nose is wet lah..hehe!! i got bad flu and its just getting worst not having teddy meddy around.. booboo!!

bye2!! please cum to my sch carnival anyone??????????

Sch started!!! New teachers, new class and a whole new experience...yippee!

2007-01-05T06:30:00.000-08:00

haha... its the fifth day of sch.. sch was fun for the past five days as it wasnt that intense yet.. there were not much lessons conducted and not much homework given.. aniways, i have a new class.. last year, for tutorials, we had to walk all over the sch for our lessons.. fourth floor lah, P block lah..so leceh rite.. but!!! this year we only have to stay in class AND its air-conditioned.. woohoo!!!! AND..we get to use the tablet-pc..weeee! but, its not dat fun oso.. i tink w/o tablet-pc oso, sch will be oso fun to me with my frens and teddy meddy around.. these are the most important stuffs that can motivate me to cum to sch everyday..

so we have new teachers teaching us.. i can say all the teachers are good..

okae enuff wit sch.. u noe? i tink i have the feeling that teddy knows that i kinda have feelings for him.. cause theres many instances whereby he can see the obviousness..hahaha! like what AR said to him..that was like straight to his face ah.. if hes dat fast to catch it, then it means that he knows it oredi.. but if hes abit slow, then he wun have a clue..aha! so lets just wait and see..

and btw..just know we had cca fair.. and guz wat? almost 3/4 of the time, i was watching teddy meddy in action and not going around promoting my cca..haha!!! cmon ah..it was boring lah going ard attracting ppl.. i tink looking at my teddy meddy in action is so much better.. cute lah he..

okae bye!!!

Hari Raya Haji and New Years Eve

2006-12-31T04:42:00.000-08:00

today is hari raya haji and oso the new years eve.. i just came back from my grandma's house in bedok.. well..today is oso her bdae.. so it was like a three-in-one celebration.. her bdae, hari raya haji and oso new years day.. we had a small so-called party at her house.. the chocolate cake that my aunt bought was damn nice.. and the food that my grandma cooked was super wonderful.. i tink rite.. i shud really start dieting.. ive been eating non-stop (klah..its abit too exaggerated).. i havent been watching my weight i tink.. and sch gonna start any minute man.. damn!!! but i hope its not dat bad..hehe!!

ytd i didnt go for my alumni band pract..and they actually had an election for the new coordinator.. i wasnt there so i didnt wat really happen..

honestly..i miss teddy meddy.. i noe for this past few days..or isit weeks? okae watever.. ive been trying not to mantion aniting about teddymeddy in my blog.. i thought i want to maybe put teddy meddy for aside.. but.. it doesnt mean that i have forgotten about him.. i still lap my teddy meddy alot okae? haha! u noe got this post that i wrote in one of the previous posts about me getting upset about teddy meddy.. a news that i found out about him that made me sad..you remember? if no, then just go read back my posts..haha! oh well.. i tink i shudnt jump to conclusion very quickly.. cause.. i just realised that news was not dat true actually..

but aniways... im looking forward having teddy meddy as my close fren first.. :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR.. AND WELCOME 2007...

Merry Christmas

2006-12-25T05:25:00.000-08:00

okae..since its the eve of christmas i will like to wish all my friends..

MERRY CHRISTMAS

HAHA..hello mr santa.. i hope you can drop by my house to give me a few pressie okae.. aniting will do..haha!

so in about one week's time, school gonaa start.. so going to enjoy it.. i want to go back to sch.. hehe.. i miss my beloved friends and classmates.. lap them all!!!

okae..i duno what else to write and update.. so peace out ppl..

JC Band Fest 2006 - WASBE

2006-12-22T14:11:00.000-08:00

okae..for the past four days ive been busy with my JC band fest thingy which was held at the NIE there.. okae.. i will give u a few updates on what interesting things that happened along this wonderful journey..okae not so wonderful..haha..

DAY 1

i had to assemble at the NIE there at 9am..with my huge instrument of course.. but then i was damn..i really mean damn late..i reached that place at about 9.45am where all the other band members assembled.. so luckily my band known as RAVEL, got viknesh inside.. so i wun be that lonely afterall.. the first activity was the ice-breaking games.. omg! it was damn boring lah the games.. but then i made new friends.. frm ACJC, CJC, TPJC and more.. and guz what? i even saw some of my ex-band mates.. sylvester, caiting, cheng kok and qianru.. cheng kok was in the same band as me.. after that we had our lunch at the NIE canteen.. okaelah..the food there quite nice i can say..and cheap too.. then we had our sectional.. i joined the brass ensemble with the tuba players.. my band played 4 pieces namely the "Viking March", "Lwynn On", "Charming Asia" and "Portraits".. damn! the pieces were damn hard.. try to imagine playing running notes on the double bass.. u will shit like what seh! im not supposed to be in this band initially but they transfered me cause the double bass player didnt attend this fest.. the hardest piece was the viking march.. it was so fast and i had running notes to play lah.. but i did try my best to play.. so proud of myself..

Day2 and 3

on these 2 days were mostly practice, practice and more practice...okae bye!

Day4 - the concert day

this was the bestest day during the whole band fest.. i went to have lunch with the RAVEL ppl.. there were very friendly lah.. then got this eupho guy, name khai..he likes to disturb me seh..haha!!! but its okae...i can take jokes.. then we headed to the esplanade concourse to assemble then get our esplanade passes.. u noe what? they have to scan our pass before we can enter the hall seh.. and we have to oso scan it again when we go back home.. just in case they think that we are still inside the hall.. so damn strict seh.. but i like it.. very professional.. so we then headed to our dressing rooms.. u wun wanna walk at the esplanade hall..i mean the inside..alone.. confirm get lost.. the place is so big and theres so many paths to follow.. very complicating.. then we went to watch the first 2 bands; BIZET AND DEBUSSY.. we were the third band to perform.. the last band was SAINT- SAENS... the bands were named after old famous composers...cool huh? RAVEL was the youngest among the four..and we also played the hardest pieces.. when we did ous sound check, i tink alot of them were nervous.. we made quite a number of mistakes.. and ya.. before i forgot.. my conductors were Dr Alan Lourens and Mr Joseph Cheung.. i noe Dr Alan thru the competitons that we joined and the master classes.. and he pointed the number one rule in music "dun kill you mates".. i tink the opwo ppl will noe what it means..haha! okae..back to the topic.. the hall is very dry..as in little mistakes the audiences will be able to hear.. and in that hall i can even hear myself lah.. so scary.. but then when u stand on the stage..u feel damn proud.. it was a feeling that i really want to experience... then we had about an hour to prepare.. we played poker cards inside the room.. then when out turn..we played as normal as what we practised..and it sounded nice.. especially the charming asia song..

i received sweets and chocs frm the band ppl there.. i felt quite bad that i didnt get anythin for them.. but the experience playing with them was an unforgettable one.. RAVEL ROCKS!!!

okae..thats all for the JC band fest thingy.. now..for my own personal thoughts... im sad actually.. haiz.. now i can really see the real teddy meddy oredi.. and teddy confesses everything even without saying..haiz.. im so sad... maybe its just not my luck...haiz....

home sweet HOME!!!

2006-12-17T00:21:00.000-08:00

okae..haha! my beloved opwo juniors have reached singapore safe and sound.. lap2 them..

okae.. i met farhana, yaser, jannah, faris, sebast and hafiz at the airport to pick the opwo members.. i reached there ard 12pm..their flight supposed to land at 2pm but it delayed till 2.50pm.. so we went to the viewing mall to play the usual game..the poker cards of course.. they as usual insulted the pppl that walked past that place..haha! got once right..there was a mly guy which looks like "alias kadir", a malay comedian..then faris non-stop seh laughed and eventually everybody laughed at the joke too..haha! it was damn funny.. then after sick and tired of playing cards, we went to go for a walk ard the airport.. so as to kill time..

then 2.50pm oredi..so we waited for the band members near thei luggage belt there... we were so excited when we saw them.. farhana was forver shouting at my ears..haha.. for a moment, there was a hugging session..awww....dat was so sweeeettttttttt!!!!!!!!!! after 5 days didnt see them, of course it wasa relief for us.... lap them all!

after that we headed back to sch with the bus.. it was nice seeing them back safe and sound.. i lap them..

okae..tmr my band camp starts..im not looking forward to it at all actually.. so leceh lah.. haiz..but wat to do rite? so im sure i will be busy for the whole of next week.. so will update if i can find time okae...

bye2!!!

to unknown in my tag board: u go and search for the song at www.multiply.com
u will then create an account and then searh for it..

the school holiday is killing me...

2006-12-13T14:31:00.000-08:00

haha...yar its killing me rite now..the school holidays are so damn boring for me.. haiz.. probably because, for the past two years, this school holiday has been a great experience for me.. i went overseas for two consecutive years..but only this year im stuck in singapore..haha!! the opwo ppl are now in hong kong seh..enjoying themselves to the max.. haiz.. im so jealous.. i really wanna go overseas again with my beloved band members.. i still remember the great times we had during our trips to KL and Genting.. we played many wonderful pranks and took on the thrilling rides together.. i still remember the tower that we took in Genting.. oh boy! that was damn scary..but atleast it was worth the try.. but all there can only remain as a memory.. haiz.. how i wish i can just be 16 for the rest of life and travel with my band ppl every year.. when are we going overseas again???!!!! but aniways, i just wish for the best in their safety.. must remember to but for me sourvenier okae..haha!!

okae..im so dead bored.. i played checkers with my family again.. we played a new game that my mum thought of..haha! it was worth killing the time actually..

nxt week will be a hectic week for me.. i will be having my band practices and my concert.. i cant wait for sch actually..hehe!! okae lah ppl.. bye2!

btw,nice anot my blog? i thought i wanna give ot a new look...hehe! i personally think its cute.. haha! i bet the person hu created this skin is damn brilliant..haha! okae.

bye2...

Im Happy enough!

2006-12-12T01:39:00.000-08:00

okay..now is like so early in the morning but i am still not sleeping.. ytd was my 17th bdae.. okay..quite a number of ppl that wished me..thank you all..

jannah
kat
leea
annette
hafiz
siti farhanum
sufina
siti nur rumaishah
fahtin
charlene
liyana rahmat
firdaus - innova
firdaus
vicky
farhana

thank you all..really appreciate it.. last but not least.. teddy meddy oso wished me..yippee!! haha! eventho its kinda late but im happy enuff that he wished me.. so he actually remembers it..haha! had a chat with him just now..thx ar! thx for saying that in life we have to be patient.. oh well..i am being patient..since u said so..haha! aniway..i wan to go out but i just cant find the right time...haiz.. maybe we wait for next year okay kat..

bye evryone..im getting sleepy oredi..

Happy Bdae to ME!!!

2006-12-11T01:51:00.000-08:00

okae..now its exactly 1:50am in the morning..and guz wat? today is my BDAE..hehe.. i cut the cake that my family bought ytd..which is like few hours ago.. we celebrated in advance cause everyone will be busy with work today since it is monday.. okae.. i ate roti john, epok2, kueh teow goreng and the chocolate cake...now im so full that i cant sleep.. the cake is nice..thanks sis..love you!! then played checkers as a family..fun..

okae..at 12am, i made my wishes...hopefully it will cum true..one day.. so, today, i duno wat to do.. haiz.. so boring lah.. im not yet happy cause im just waiting for that teddy to wish me.. oh well, we talked just now..haha! kinda happy for a few minutes..but then only for a few minutes only..haiz.. i want him lah..okae..i cant be selfish..

the first person that wished me was my beloved jannah.. love you baby!!! thx! next was kat!!! laplap..

i seriously wanna go jogging at the stadium lah..but siti got camp..then got no one to jog with.. i really wanna prepare myself before sch starts so that i wun have muscle cramps..haha!! its been months since i ran a proper run..haha!! confirm teruk oredi..

aniway, my OPWO is going Hong Kong this tues.. have a safe journey okae darlings.. and to hussaini, please dun get sick.. cause there wun be farhana to take care of you like the Genting and KL trip.. everyone please take care of urself k?

okae..yuhok! bye2!

No more Teddy Meddy...:(

2006-12-07T04:15:00.000-08:00

there wun be any teddy meddy oredi...:(.. i just found sth about him that i tink i wun have the right to have him as my teddy oredi.. its just so sad that i cant describe it.. ive oredi expecting the worse that could cum actually.. but i tink its just unavoidable to have this feeling.. seriously, im totally sad..cant blame him actually.. maybe its just not my chance.. i tot we could be close frens first but i tink it wun be a gd idea either now.. haiz... maybe its not me...i duno...

"there wun be any teddy meddy for me...:("

My bdae Wishlist...

2006-12-05T21:53:00.000-08:00

today's post is a HUGE one..haha...just wanna try out..okae...since my bdae is cuming soon.. might as well create a bdae wishlist of the things that i want to happen...if possible...hehe!!! mcm tak tahu malu gitu...alah org nye pasal lah.. kiter nye bdae seh..hehe... okae..

MY BIRTHDAY WISH LIST

1) i want a proper internet connection...{oh well, my connection now just sucks.. so i want a better one...JC2 year going to be hectic..so better be prepared earlier...sumore..tablet pc here i cum..hehe}

2) i want a watch, shoe, bag, jacket...{sch is opening soon..hehe..must look good mah..hehe}

3) a new hp if possible

4) sumone just help me pay my hp bill before my mom nags at me..{bro or sis, haha...u shud noe wat to do...alah...got bonus can spare for me sum rite?hehe-this is like a big hint lah}

5) i want my favourite chocolate...haha.. {check my profile list to see what is it}

6) lastly. if can, :-)...i want to go out with teddy meddy...any day before sch re-opens..celebrate my bdae or stg or just going out for fun {this will be the nicest present if it really is true}

oh well...my bdae wish not dat bad rite ppl? its not as if im asking sumthing unrealistic..hehe..if u put ur heart and soul into it of course it will cum true..haha!!! tk malu!!! hehe...so will update soon..

"teddy, should i continue?? only u got the answer to it..."

Monday Blues

2006-12-04T21:06:00.000-08:00

oh well...im just sad.. actually im sad since ytd.. haiz.. i dunoe lah.. im just exhausted.. like how the song goes, "its hard holding you, loving you, losing you...its sad to be true.." i dunoe lah.. its so hard to hold you and get hold of you...and its so hard to also love you cause of the heartbreaks that i have to face.. and its even harder to lose you...cause i really want you to be there.. all there are so hard for me..and im just too exhausted.. :(.. but if i were to be true to my feelings and continue on, it will just make me more sad... i tried ways to make you notice but u dun care shit about it.. i really wanna let it go if this just leads me to nowhere.. BUT... i CANT.. its just so deep that whenever i tried to "hate" you, i "love" you even more...

whatever it is, im not regretting myself of having this feeling towards you...i really enjoy this feeling of liking you..its just dat i just want you to realise it one day.. unrequitted love just sucks!!

okae..my hp cannot use oredi.. haha! im going to change my number soon k? so dun msg or call my hp oredi... if theres anything, call my hse number...67593295....okae?

yuhok! bye!

its been one whole week...and ure not back yet...

2006-11-30T04:23:00.000-08:00

ok..2dae... its exactly one week eversince teddy left and be gone.. i miss him so much.. i dunoe will he be back.. haiz.... aniways...

2dae i stayed at home for the whole day..so bored.. my mum is forever making noise at home.. with this lah, that lah.. haiz... i dunoe wat to do actually.. im in no mood to do aniting.. aniway, i freaking dowan to be in the WASBE thingy.. firstly, im only going to play two songs for the entire concert..secondly, no transportation will be provided..wat do u tink??i dun like seh this kinda of service.. its good enuff that i want to perform..so atleast spare a thought lah.. u tink my instrument is as light as the flute... wth????????????????? im so going to hate the teachers in charge.. imagine i have to travel back and forth with that freaking heavy imstrument only for two pathetic songs..not nice sumore the songs.. i hate the school and the teachers organising this freaking concert.. well i dun give a damn whether WASBE or me performing at esplanade is a big thing... well, i rather me performing in my sch hall but then being treated nicely..like a musician.. just because theres no tuba u can freaking ignore abt the transportation issue..well for goodness sake, u can carry my instrument for all u want... i seriously am not being petty or wat..but this is nonsense lah..expect me to carry it on my own.. if easy, i dun mind tau... atleast give me taxi money ah if i got no choice but to take taxi..but...they dun.. everything our money when its supposed to be a sch function...they can simply say... "go and work things out urself".... imagine ah wat i felt when he just said that to me... knnbccb!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im in no mood to perform now after all the treatment that i got.. i freaking hate the band, the teachers and watever else.... if only i can turn back time......

ok

chill

chill

im sorry pppl.. im just angry...and frustrated.. i tink i just miss him so much... haiz....please cum back soon....

I want Teddy...the ECP trip was A-ok...

2006-11-27T04:27:00.000-08:00

okae..2dae i didnt do much as im at home for the whole day.. okae..ytd we had our ECP trip.. it was fun but not as fun...am i contradicting you guys? oh well... its fun okae,, its just dat its abit unplanned actually.. so everyone basically did their own activity.. there wasnt a proper activity ah.. but as a whole im happy enuff cause i can hang out with my frens and went for a swim.. there were leea, siti, kat, AR, Hafiz, 2 Hafiz's fren and a bunch of AR's fren... so altogether about 10 of us i think.. we reached there around 1pm... the rest were there oredi.. so me and siti and leea were the ones late..haha!!! Hafiz brought a HUGE...i realLy mean HUGE..tent..haha! so itwas easy for us to locate them actually.. we then went for a swim..it was nice.. after sooooo long, it felt so nice dipping myself..haha!!! played 20 questions with hafiz while swimming... then went to eat at mac..hehe..bla bla bla.. well i reached home around 11.30 pm.. luckily my mum didnt nag...well she did stare..but staring is so much better than nagging..

okae..this saturday.. my beloved OPWO will be having a concert...im looking forward to it ppl.. aniways...im missing him so much..when are you cuming back????hopefully ure fine...take care..

"its hard holding you, loving you, losing you....."

Boredom....

2006-11-23T23:06:00.000-08:00

aiyayayayayayaya.....im so bored at home that i can find time to update this blog of mine.... i dunoe wat to do actually..haha...well, i received this question and answer thingy... well, just see for urself k?

COLOURS

[RED]
Closest red thing to you?
my shirt

Last thing to make you angry?
if this sun east coast trip is cancelled...i will be damn angry..

Do you have a temper?
no..to me, happy-go-lucky

Are you a fan of romance?
of course

[ORANGE]
Closest orange thing to you?
my shorts

Do you like to burn things?
no...burn wat?? of course no..

Dress up for Halloween?
never dress up for halloween before..but i tink it will be cool..

Are you usually a warm-hearted person?
of course..hehe

Do you have anything against gingerhair?
in the first place wat is ginger hair..haha

Are you usually full of energy?
yup..if i got the mood then i will be damn hyper..

[YELLOW]
Closest yellow thing to you?
my sis bolster..im inside her room..haha

The happiest time[s] of your life?
u sure u want me to list it all? well, currently will ne time when i went out with teddy.. other happiest times, well u can see for urself at my profile list..

Favorite holiday?
to Australia Gold Coast

What makes you happy?
chocolates and teddy meddy

Are you a coward?
duno... i tink im not.. i tink i am.. well it depends on the situation..

Do you burn or tan?
no..im tanned enuff..haha

[GREEN]
Closest green thing to you?
flower..

Do you care about the enviroment?
of course i do.. im a geog student for goodness sake..haha

Are you jealous of anyone right now?
honestly, yar.. but hu cres, i will have my chance one day..

Are you a lucky person?
duno.. i consider myself to be lucky enuff compared to the less fortunate...:)

Do you always want what you can't have?
yar...but i make sure i will get it one day.. im an idealist..

Are you Irish?
no..im Singaporean.. im a mixed of Sri-lankan and Javanese

[BLUE]
Closest blue thing to you?
my hp..

Are you good at calming people down?
not really.. but i can do better next time..

Do you like the sea?
of course..eventhough i cant swim for nuts

Last thing to make you cry?
if i lost my hp..actually i wun cry at all.. cause i want a new phone.. but i sure noe wats the first thing that will make me cry..

Are you a logical thinker?
i dun tink so..

Can you sleep easily?
yar.. if im tired of course..

[PURPLE]
Last purple thing you saw?
cant remember

Like being treated to expensive things?
of course..but normal stuffs will do too..

Do you like mysterious things?
ahah...of course...hehe

Favorite type of chocolate?
take note evryone....RITTER SPORTS CORNFLAKES..

Are you creative?
well i tink so..hehe

[PINK]
Closest pink thing to you?
candle

Do you like sweet foods?
well of course

Like play-fighting?
yar i like fighting games..hehe

Are you sensitive?
i tink so

Do you like punk music?
i do listen to it sumtimes

[WHITE]
Closest white thing to you?
my comp screen now

Would you say you're innocent?
im innocent okae..

Always try to keep the peace?
yup

How do you imagine your wedding?
cute, simple yet elegant..that will be nice

Do you like to play in the snow?
yar of course i do...

Are you afraid of going to the doctorsor dentist?
doctor no, dentist yes..hehe

[BLACK]
Closest black thing to you?
my laptop

Are you sophisticated or silly?
im nore silly that sophisticated

Would you like to go to space?
yar.. it will be fun..

Do you have a lot of secrets?
alot?? not sure.. but i do have secrets..

What is your favorite color?
orange.......well i just like bright colours

Does the color you wear affect your mood?
nope

SAGITTARIUS
Spontaneous.
Freak in Bed.
High sex appeal. {wat the hell??}
Rare to find.
Great when found.
Loves being in long relationships.
The one
So much love to give
Not one to mess wit
Very pretty.
Very romantic.
Nice to everyone
They meet.
Their Love is one of a kind. {yar true}
Silly, fun and sweet

LAST BUT NOT LEAST...
i just miss teddy meddy...ur safety is in my prayers..

so far, yet so near..

2006-11-23T04:10:00.000-08:00

today ive been stuck at home..bored as usual.. i have no more sch oredi and now its officially a sch holiday to me..yippee!!! but im sure gonna miss sch so much..especially the ppl there..and of course the food too..haha!! aniway, today is the day that teddy is going to be so far from me..i mean real far.. but eventhough it is so far, hes just so near to me, in my heart...cedebah!!! im sure going to miss him..hehe!!

2dae my small bro got back his PSLE result...haha!! im still the highest PSLE agregate scorer in my family.. my bro is 2 points behind me..phew!! aniway, i want him to go my sec sch and of course join band.. but i cant force him.. if hes heart is not into band like me..i bet he will create a hard time for my conductor..hehe!!

i have a feeling ryt..i will be out of WASBE.. firstly is because, i didnt attend band practice for two weeks.. secondly, i heard from one of my band fren, he said that for the WASBE practices ryt, u have to go to the place urself to practice.. there wun be any transport provided.. WTH!! u tink im going to carry my HUGE double bass all the way to MOE hall is it.. no way!! its not heavy but it will be so leceh lah.. unless sumone can help me..actually can take the car but u tink my bro got time wanna send me by car is it? he oso got work lah.. my father? well, i dun tink so too.. until they get me a proper transportation, then i will perform..if i have to be out of that that concert, well i dun mind.. its not my fault wat.. i really want to perform lah..but they never give me a proper transport..haha!! its okae i will be having another concert next year with my beloved ex-OPWO members..now known as OPAW.. so check me out.. the details of the concert will be given out soon i guess.. yessa!! finally get to perform a proper concert after sooo looong..

i miss him..absence makes the heart grow fonder?? well, its true....hehe

disappointed and sad but im not regretting it..

2006-11-22T04:46:00.000-08:00

ok now im like listening to the band songs that i used to play with my beloved Orchid Park Wind Orchestra members... the songs are making me happy and since im sad, i love listening to it lah..hehe.. i seriously miss the wonderful times we had for band practises.. i still remember the hard work we put in especially for our 2005 SYF.. i still remember theres one point of time when our conductor, Mr Tan wanted to quit.. it was like so near the comp lah.. he was just disappointed to the fact that we were not at even the Bronze award standard.. we as a whole band went to his house and pleaded him to come back and continue teaching us..it was a moment where everone cried..it was so emotional..haha!! then, i still remember the last week to our competion, we had to be in sch like 6am in the morning to practise our comp pieces...it was a tiring job for us to wake up everyday to practise..but since our conductor was able to do it, we also did our part by doing what he asked us to do.. we practised, practised and practised, just to get the desirable award that we initially expected, Silver... after all the hard work and preseverance, we managed to get it...Gold with Honours.. nothing like what we expected..

i still remember the few minutes before the announcement of the results.. i even cried beforethe results were announced.. i was so damn scrared.. i did not want to suffer the humiliation that we went thru for like two years.. now!!!! look ppl in the sch..especially the teachers that want us down.. we have proved ourselves that we can also do it..haha!!!

ok enuff of always thinking abt the past..life shud go on rite? aniway.. im feeling disappointed and sad but im not regretting it at all.. well, dun undastan rite? ok... im feeling disappointed that this cuming ecp trip will be lacking in sumone.. well.. its okae.. im just a bit disappointed.. aniway thres plenty of opportunity.. im oso sad to the fact that im just not the one for....well u noe hu... maybe its just not me... thatz y im feeling kinda down lately.. well, i cant force feelings but i just hope that what i wish for will cum true one day...:)

well, im not regretting having feelings for teddy...cause im sure hes just nice for me.. i noe that it might hurt me, but its okae... i can sacrifice it.. i shud be true to my feelings.. i cant be denial towards myself rite? so.... i shud just be true..and follow my feelings.. well like hafiz said..im an idealist person.. i wun give up till the very end..:)

MONDAY 20th November

2006-11-20T04:25:00.000-08:00

today i had to go to sch cause i had literature workshop frm 10am to 4.30pm.. i was actually reluctant to go for the workshop cause as u all know, i dun really like literature.. but aniway..the course was fun.. we learned about the shakespear book "tempest".. i was clueless at first as i havent read the book yet..but after the workshop, i undastan more about the text.. we did role play and it was damn funny to see my classmates acted out the various roles..haha!

aniway, tmr i still got the similar workshop...buit we are going to a production whereby i have to act out as one of the characters in the play..i must act out the role of...oppsssss.....i forgot the name lah,,buit im supposed to act as the royal jester..haha! cute huh? i bet its going to be funny..haha!

actually i expected sumthing today but i culdnt get it..its okae..maybe tmr i guess.. i seriously cant wait for this sun ecp trip.. im looking forward to the activities we going to do..like cycling, playing some beach sports i guess, play cards and the interesting one will be the swim.. i really wanna go for a swim for like such a long time ah.. i actually cant swim for "kacang"(nuts).. but i really want to swim..haha! so see you all at ecp k ppl...

today im bored..

2006-11-18T22:30:00.000-08:00

oh well.. im at home rite now..duno wat to do.. surfing the net is not dat fun animore.. i cant get my nap cause my bro is now sleeping on my bed lah.. i got nowhere to slp..so irritating seh.. he shud just get himself a proper bed.. hes been slping at the sofa.. and now, i bet hes trying to get every opportunity to get to slp on my bed.. ape seh??? i noe lah my bed very cosy thats why u cant get ur ass off that bed rite bro?? haha! its okae.. he must be tired i guess.. let him have his handsome sleep..a proper handsome sleep..haha!!

aniway..later im having my alumni band pract..cant wait actually cause im seriously dead bored at home..online pun no one is taliking to me lah.. expecting sumone to talk but he doesnt bother talking to me lah.. so sad.. its always me and never him.. its okae.. i will just wait till u realise it one day.. so today for alumni pract i duno wat songs are we going to play.. hopefully interesting ones which got nice bass parts.. and oso..the long awaited mace pract.. ive been wanting to get my hands on that mace.. ive been playing the mace eversince hussaini brought the mace back home.. i really wanna play that mace again..today i hope i will pick a new style of throwing and hopefully i can throw it successfully.. haha! i tink being a drum major is cool.. i mean only when the mace part..haha!

okae..anw..im still sad.. sad that he doesnt seem to care abt me at all.. i duno wat he wants actually but i seriously wanna noe wats on his mind rite now.. hu is "she"? i rather it be sumone that i duno so that i wun feel as sad.. but still im oso sad at the mention of "her".. hu seh? haiz.. hopefully like wat hafiz said..if im true to my feelings.. he will surely realise it one day.. hehe! INSYAALLAH...

"i really want you to see me...the only me"

its way too deep...

2006-11-16T21:44:00.000-08:00

hello ppl... ytd i went out with kat, AR, hafiz and siti..we went to east coast park..its actually an unplanned outing.. i went to sch in the morning for maths remedial but then i met up with hafiz, kat and AR.. then i felt like lazy wanna go for maths.. sumore its ms tan.. i will confirm get sleepy during her lesson.. so aniway, i met up with them.. then they ajak me and siti to AR's class bbq.. i felt kinda weird to go to sumone's class party.. i duno any of them lah.. but since im damn bored i agreed to the idea..

so we waited for kat to clean up her so messy locker.. while waiting, we surfed the net and created quite a havoc in that sch.. sorry if i disturbed the ppl taking exams ytd.. ermmm okae.. then we took a bus to tamp.. there, we met up with siti who went home to chg first.. haha! leceh lah u....hehe! aniway we then went to kat's hse..ate shephards pie(err i wonder if i spelled it correctly).. ate merci chocolates.. i ate like seven of it lah.. i tink because i was sad abt the day before ytd.. i tink chocs make me happy.. hafiz tried to give me sum ..wat u call that? psycho-therapy? okae yar...well im not a psycho okae. he just wanna test it out but eventually it failed..haha! too noisy! we left kat's hse ard 3 plus i guess..i dint take notice of the time lah.. ahhhhhhhhh! i forgot stg.. i played a new game called worms with hafiz.. haha! the first game i won okae...nt bad for a beginner like me tau..

after dat, we reached east soast park.. played with the water for a while.. didnt spend much time actually cause we reached there like nearly 6 i tink.. so at abt 7 we sat at the rocks near the beach.. me, hafiz and siti... hehe! we talked, talked and talked..haha! it was windy.. i actually felt like sleeping lah.. ard 8 me and siti went home frm there.. the best part of the trip was the "jump".. i jumped twice from the rock to the sand..haha! mcm fun gitu.. actually i tink i hurt my hips frm that jumping..haha!

okae..nxt sun we going east coast again..yippee! hope its gonna be fun..yey!

anw, i heard many wonderful stories frm hafiz..okae.. he also told me abt his ambition.. hes so sweet.. he said teddy will be like him oso..he will risk his life just to protect the country and his loved ones...awwwww...so damn sweet.. im touched.. he said that teddy will be like him oso.. omg! that will be so nice..now..he really made me like teddy more lah... :(... awwww... and one more thing.. he said that if teddy become exactly like wat hafiz wanna be..he will rather not tell me wat hes doing so as not jeopardize my safety..alah.. i bet u all wun undastan rite.. i will make it clearer lah one dae... i tink this post is too long to continue oredi..haha.. till then.. see ya!

OMG!!!

2006-11-15T05:03:00.000-08:00

okae.. my initial intention of posting this blog was to write about the outing today with siti.. but within this few minutes online i just saw stg that really made me damn upset.. mw i feel like im in no mood to blog animore.. but..........................okae...chill.... i will talk to you ppl about the outing first.

just now, i went to northpoint to do some shopping... well we walked around i tried a couple of tops and pants... eventually i came across a dress..which really kinda suits me well.. i went to try it out.. and eventually i decided to but that dress.. well i really wanna a dress actually and its part of my wishlist aniway.. so i bought..sumore its cheap.. so i finally got a dress.. happy of course..

back at home.. now..while typing all these.. im feeling very sad.. sumone wrote stg thst just makes me feel sad... im just too sad to continue....... sorry ppl....:(:(:(:(

inside the dance studio..

2006-11-12T21:18:00.000-08:00

now im inside the dance studio with the dancers of the carte-blanche.. well..i actually came to sch for ntg.. im just bored staying at home so i rather go to sch and watch teddy..hehe!

im actually very upset nw..teddy left without even once look at me lah..am i dat insignificant to him? im just sad that he didnt even look at me..wat more smile at me.. im just upset.. i tink ppl.. the feelings is just way too deep oredi.. i duno how and y but it is.. its just way too deep and i cant help it oredi.. im very sad.. i cant turn back oredi.. y does he seem so special to me? y am i the only one dat find him attractive? argh!!!! i cant help it oredi..

okae..chill... im okae now... bye2!

my frens....

2006-11-09T20:49:00.000-08:00

okae.. i gt ntg to do now..im in sch watching my frens dancing2.. so now i would like to blog about my different types of frens that i encountered(mcm creature plk...sori lah i duno wat better word to use)... so here it goes..

LEEA a.k.a KAKAK LAY-AH
she is the kakak for me..hehe.. she is the cheerful, bubbly and outgoing person...she likes to dance and she also likes to BOO BOO..hehe.. she is my fren..
SITI a.k.a COW
she is the ever so lovely fren hu aims to be a princess..haha! kidding aite.. so now she is into sumone now..sampai msg me tanye psl bdk tu nmpk...hehe.. so u gt sth to look forward to sch now..
SUFINA a.k.a WHALE
she is the chickeding of our grp...she always the one hu makes us laugh..therefore shes also a BOOBOO.. siti u oso a booboo k? forgot to mention just now..heehee..
KAT a.k.a MEOW
she is oso a chickeding plus a booboo as well...hehe.. she always like to ACP as mentioned by kakak lay-ah..haha.. she oso likes to dance2 like kakak lay-ah..go AR!

now left with me..haha... of course i can oso say dat im a booboo too..hehe

i oso miss my Orchid Park Wind Orchestra.. i miss the band practices we had..my instrument.. and of course the ppl there... i miss..
1.jannah
2.charlene
3.annette
4.farhana
5.mardiana
6.hafiz
7.siraj
8.faris
9.shafiq
10.shannon
11.azlan
12.hussaini
13.yaser
14.and the rest that i din mention...too much to write lah..

i oso miss my bitchalisation sisters...wen wanna jln rayer man...hehe

most of all i miss teddy meddy!!!haahaa....hopefully teddy misses me too..haha.. perasan seh...okaelah..bye2..tata!

a day before oral presentation

2006-11-08T04:22:00.000-08:00

hello ppl.. do u pplactually notice that the list of things that i want to do on the left side of my blog has been fully accomplished..haha! i talked to teddy oredi...went out with teddy oredi... and also get promoted to JC2 nxt year.. yippee! didnt expect things to be done so quickly.. i never ever thought that i could ever go out with teddy.. but i did.. hehe!

aniway, today is a day before OP(oral presentation)... did a dry run with my teacher.. hopefully everything goes smoothly tmr.. and i do hope that the question and answer session would not be so hard..hehe!

honestly, today im kinda upset dat i cant have dinner with teddy...well...its okae.. im sure there are other days that i can spend time with teddy meddy.. im wondering whether teddy remembers abt my OP which is tmr.. well.. i remembered his okae...

okae...thats all! bye ppl.... "Everybody is a Boo Boo"

my wishes came true!!!!

2006-11-05T03:19:00.000-08:00

yippee!!! my wishes finally came true....yippee! guz wat? i had a bonding day with teddy todae.. and i finally talked to him for the first time in my entire life.. hehehehe! i lurve teddy... hes so damn nice to me that i just went blank looking at how he treated me.. hes just too nice to be true.. alah..apsal awak cute sangat ah? awak pun adorable lah... i hope this bonding day wun be just the first and the last meeting we had.. tata!

oh gosh...hes just so hot...u just cant believe it but hes just so hot.. with that shades and the "ding-dong"(kakak lay-ah said so) hair made him just so hot.. i totally like the way he wears.. and guz wat? we matched....hahaha! it seems like we are together for a nong nong time... haha! hes just too nice, handsome, gorgeous, charming, dashing and cute to be true...hehe! lap him!

i thank God for all these.. hehe!

MY WISH CAME TRUE!

2006-11-04T04:24:00.000-08:00

hehe...yessa! my wish came true.. u noe which wish anot? alah...both teddy and him got promoted to JC2.. yippee! i thought teddy couldnt make it because i heard the assumption that he wants to leave the sch.. aniway, im happy that he can be promoted to next year.. the results were anoounced ytd.. it was kinda bad for the sch to show a list of names.. eventho at first they didnt say wat was it for, but we were not dumb lah.. they flashed it out on to the big screen the names of those who retained.. if me, i will be embarassed.. they shouldnt have done that in the first place.. i pity them seh..

okae..so i was worried when the list of names were shown.. i looked at the screen with full concentration.. i waited for teddy's class....AND...his name was not there! yippee! then i waited a while more for HIM's class...ahah! his name was no there either.. yippee! im so glad that i nearly wanted to cry..haha! emo! but hu cares..im really happy for them and especially teddy.. i hope he does stay on and continue with his education in our sch..

aniway, im sad for kat too... dun worry k? just make him stay and he will surely stay for the sake of u...dun worry so much k? support him aite!

okae2..im happy that i get promoted too.. but i still have a lot to catch up.. i need to go for the remedials and alot more classes to help me in my studies.. now! im into PW again.. next week will be the oral presentation.. thank GOD, its the last thing in PW.. after that no more stressing my brain for that damn tiring PW.. i must practise my speech well so as not to disappoint my grp members..hehe! go CINNA-MON!
hehe! tmr is my fren's open house... i really hope kat remember wat i asked her to do for me.. i really wanna see teddy tmr...hehe!tata!

Is it true? please dun go...

2006-10-30T23:24:00.000-08:00

im sad to the max ppl...klah not to the max but im just very sad.. i heard a very depressing news frm my fren well of course about teddy.. sorry ppl that i keep in talking about teddy.. its just dat since its my blog i have to write about my real feelings.. i cant express this to anione else in proper except with my frens of course.. aniways i duno how to say it.. im scared that teddy will noe that im talking abt him.. okae aniway! im sad that i got to noe that teddy might leave me.. im so damn sad after knowing that he might wan to go and leave me.. please dun leave me teddy.. i will miss u badly if u leave me.. haiz!

but its just a small probability that he will go.. but still.. kat's fren said that i shud just support him with his decision.. yar hes true that i have to support him lah but still its better that he just stay..

okae! tata!

my love!

2006-10-28T06:06:00.000-07:00

hehe! hello ppl... i actually didnt plan to update my blog.. but im just bored so i just update sth lah.. aniways today i had pw in sch! WTH?! its saturday but i still have to go sch.. no life seh.. but wat to do for pw sake.. i really wanna score well for it.. cmon ar.. we put in so much efforts.. okae! stop talking abt sch..

so wat am i supposed to talk about??errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr............ okae.. ytd i went to watch a 150 inch "life TV".. hehe.. i bet u duno wat im talking about rite.. (its a secret code)..
aniways.,after had a chat with kat's fren hafis, i tink hes rite.. so datz y im nt as moody as the previous post.. i shud just take things slowly.. okae!

for rayer, i wan to go out with all my frens frm innova, my bitchalisation sisters, band frens and also my pri sch frens.. but i dunoe whether i can cover everyone in time.. but of course i will like to go to teddy's hse for rayer... hehe! i just hope we can go jln rayer together2.. looking forward to it..

nxt week will be a damn busy week for me.. 'A' level mother tongue and also pw.. hopefully i will be free by nxt2 week.. cos i want to jln rayer with my booboo frens.. i lap them! and of course teddy..hehe! and i alsowanna go sentosa.. i wan to swim.. long time seh nvr go swim.. wen was the last time i went out to go swim? cant remember actually.. i really wanna go sentosa..with errr...if gt teddy will be better actually.. but if other frens oso can.. pls!!

kkkkk....bye2! tata!

p.s: please tag my blog anione..im so bored..pls talk to me..hehe..even if i duno u..booboo!

MOODY ME..:(

2006-10-26T06:48:00.000-07:00

haiz.. im just feeling very sad today.. dunoe how to explain it to ppl but its just a feeling that me myself couldnt even understand. is it about teddy? ppl, am i thinking of teddy too much? i noe its nt a good sign as it seems as though im obsessed with him.. im not obsessed over him k? its just dat at this point of time i tink i really nid sumone by my side.. and i can see teddy as the perfect candidate for it.. im not up for perfection..im ook with anything.. well cmon..im a person who gives chance very easily..cause i believe in it.. aniway, where was i? okae.. i just think im feeling very down lately maybe because im thinking about this.. ppl may think im happy wen i see teddy..well of course im very happy..but i cant do much.. i cant go infront of him and just confess it straight to his face.. im not dat type of person.. i rather want it to be natural even without any hint from anyone to him. i noe i might be fighting a losing battle or wat ever it is lah.. i noe its useless to create high hopes wen its obvious that i cant achieve it.. look at the state im at now.. but i still thank GOD for the blessings that i received.. im promoted to JC2.. well done lydia!
aniways, back to where i stopped.. actually im on no mood to continue.. will update soon! sorry pppl...im not my usual self.. i really want my cheerful-ness to cum back..im sure the old lydia will cum back soon.. till then, i will try to sort out my feelings and my wants.. bye..

one more day before rayer..

2006-10-22T05:52:00.000-07:00

hello.. tmr will be the eve of hari rayer..yippee!! i cant wait to celebrate it with my new batch of frens from JC.. i am looking forward to all the nice food that i can eat..yippee!!! well, i only wish for me going jln rayer with teddy meddy and frens.. i really want to be ard him.. im gonna freaking miss him so much.. and i do hope we can really get together for the rayer outing..

aniways, last thurs i buke-ed out with kat and her fren.. his name is Hafis..(ermm i duno if it is being spelled like that).. aniways we had a good talk with each other.. and i actually told him abt teddy meddy.. i cant help it..he knows teddy meddy well and he is the person hu noes him better than anione else.. he gave me wonderful advices to go on with teddy meddy.. however, he also said i shudnt hope so much.. haiz.. i tink hes rite.. i shudnt hope so much.. cmon lydia..he doesnt even notice gerls ard him..hes simply in his own world.. haiz.. i will be hurting myself if i really hope so much frm him.. haiz.. sometimes i wonder wat is going thru his head.. i really want to noe wat he feels abt me.. but.. the best way now is to just keep it low and steady.. no matter wat i will persevere till the end like wat i did for the guy that i used to like...(jannah will noe it).. haiz.. i duno whether to feel sad or happy..
i seriously tink that i like teddy meddy alot..i cant help thinking abt him for almost every min.. i will always find ways to be able to watch teddy meddy in sch.. im gonna miss him so much during the sch hols...haiz.. but aniways, i will try my best to calm my feelings down and not be too hopeful..

sometimes, i shud just face the reality and stop dreaming... im not being a pessimist, but im doing it for my own good...haiz...

innova's open house

2006-10-21T05:22:00.000-07:00

well...on the 14th of october, my school had an open house. truthfully, its kinda boring...i duno whether our school is too big for the whole sch population or there were only few hu turned up for the open house.. hehe.. i did performed with the sch band playing my lovely double bass...it was very boring.. but i had fun walking ard the sch and watching teddy in action at the grand stand.. i like to see my teddy meddy.. aniways, i duno wat else to say..yippee!!!

what i want!

2006-10-18T23:25:00.000-07:00

i want alot of stuffs....and i want to do alot of stuffs too......yippee!in the top of my list will be me getting promoted to JC2...

1. i want teddy!!!!!!
2. a white or pink dress..
3. i want TEDDY and HIM to be promoted and of course my classmates... (please...)
4. i want red or orange jacket..
5. i want new bag..
6. i want new shoes....normal sneakers will do..
7. i want teddy to talk to me.. (oh please..)
8. i want to go out wif teddy...(jln rayer)
9. bring teddy to siti's open house....(hopefully)

it is not in any order...its just sumthings that i really really want.. yippee! hopefully can do it by this year.....tata!

u got SEXY legs!!!

2006-10-16T01:10:00.000-07:00

teddy got SEXY legs...yippee! this is my sexy teddy... hehehehehe... im not supposed to c but i just did....hahaha! and he also fell down..alah cute nyer... teddy always like to fall2 rite..hehehe! go sexy teddy... I PASSED MY LIT...finally!!! hopefully the tablet pc is mine...muahaha!

2006-10-07T23:16:00.000-07:00

Kci & JoJo - All My Life

my all time favourite song.. tis is cool shit..
u shud check out the lyric..its so damn nice...if anyone can dedicate tis song to me, wouldnt it be nice? haiz....ok lah.. njoy it k?

Lydia = Hottie

2006-10-07T06:42:00.000-07:00

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im sorry

2006-10-07T05:34:00.000-07:00

im so sorry... i didnt mean to say all that.. it was just sth in a fit of anger... im sorry k?

2006-10-06T21:03:00.000-07:00

Give it up to me

YESSA!! Exams over!!

2006-10-06T06:52:00.000-07:00

im so damn happy dat exams have finally over... no more stress, late nights, scratching of head, frownings, coffee and flipping thru my notes.. now i can get back my beauty sleep..hehe..watever!

i duno y? but is dis fate or just purely coincidence? i have been seing u practically everywhere..well of cuz not inside the washroom..haha! but really everywhere.. places dat i nvr expected u to be there.. i really am glad feeling this way, teddy meddy.. u amke me smile whenever i see u..
atleast it doesnt spoil my mood.. some ppl think im just a tranparent glass wat? well... let me say this..I DUN GIVE A DAMN ANIMORE! ppl treat me like shit..then i will treat u back like shit too.. no point trying to be nice... based on what i learn frm literature, there is such a term as karma.. well...do all u want to me.. all the bad stuffs and im sure u will get it back one day..probably not by me.. just hope that sum ppl will realise.. grow up man! u are not matured enuff..coward! self centred freak....!watever k? grow up before u even realise wat ure doing lah...

aniway..stop wif all this nonsense.. im just trying to cool myself..so sorry guys..lets get back to teddy..well ntg much to say.. aniting special i will update k ppl..
p.s: if u feel as though im talking abt u..well...feel k? cuz ure the people who will feel guilty abt it...

bye! yuh ok! luv u teddy meddy...oppss! did i just say dat? well hu crres! hehe!

MY HAPPY DAY!!!

2006-10-04T06:26:00.000-07:00

hiya!!! i luv u guys out there!!! i duno y but i just feel so happie today.... thank you kat! without her i wun be this happie.. OMG! i must thank GOD for fulfiling wat ive been wishing for..

i will talk more later k? aniway starting from now onwards i must blog abt my teddy abit more secretive cos....he might be reading tis blog sooner or later...hehe..cos...dowan to say cos later he noe im talking abt him...shud i say? well i talked to him oredi....we talked a lot of crap but we still talk..and that makes me happy....

so...now...i wanna express my concerns to all gerls out there... just beware of guys that can easily lead you on....okae...after seeing my fren got hurt so bad and also experienced it myself...i really have to say tis ar.. find the guy that will really treasure u the most no matter how bad u look like..its all based on your character and not just look....get to noe the guy well before even try to like him...

peace out ppl!!

i miss u TEDDY!

2006-09-29T07:06:00.000-07:00

hello...

today i had my GP and mother tongue mid-course exam..it was okae.. its not bad and its also nt good. so no comments on that..well..my only hope is that i will pass my mid-course so that i can get promoted..
aniway..do u all still rmbr abt my teddy..i di say that that im going to have hockey elective with him rite last wed..well yes i did.. haha! at first i thought my teddy will board the second shift bus..after knowing there is no second shift bus i was actually disappointed at first as i thought that teddy wun be cuming for the hockey elective thingy..

BUT! he did come and board the first bus with me..yippee! i was shocked and of course felt extremely delighted to c him...haha! at the delta sports complex, i was able to c my teddy in action..he was running up and down the hockey field..he was so active eventhough we were fasting..tough huh my teddy.. i like tough teddy..hehe! :)
so after all that..we board the bus back to sch.. at first i also thought that he wun board the bus but actually he did..haha! he was sitting quite in front...so teddy and his frens went about to play sum games to entertain themselves.. me and kat joined the conversation sumtymes...
GUZ WHAT! me and teddy get to talk indirectly..well..i managed to solve the riddle and he said "correct" to me...hehe! yippee! well...actually thats all..

now im sad..i wun be able to get that close to teddy animore..no matter what i will just have to keep it a low profile thingy.. teddy wun ever notice me...haiz..... well...im just a normal being to him...i cnt hope too much as it will only hurt me deeper...till then i will only look at teddy frm far..
gdluck teddy for ur mid-course.. hope u get promoted to j2...and to all my frens...gdluck yar..

bye2 teddy...hope what i wish will cum true one day...

teddy....the love at first sight...oh wad the hell! haha

2006-09-26T05:04:00.001-07:00

hello....haha.. tis week frm mon till today had been a very happy and lucky day for me.. dun u noe that for every second (okae i lied) i mean for almost everytime i stepped out of class i will see teddy meddy..haha! is this fate? well..stop dreaming lydia..is just sum infatuation.. teddy meddy wun ever talk to me..haiz..:(.. aniways.. it was cute to c him almost every time..

for now..all my mly calssmates know hu is my teddy meddy..so is wilson, khalis and...haha vicky! pinkie promise k not to reveal hus my teddy meddy.. okae tmr i will have hockey elective..yippee! hopefully can c my teddy meddy in action..

My pict....hehe

2006-09-22T06:25:00.001-07:00

Hockey rox my socks

2006-09-22T06:01:00.000-07:00

hello peepz!

how i really hate weekends now...i reallie enjoy going to sch..of cuz i will be able to see my teddy.. now...i tink im gonna miss him alot i guz..haiz.. oso i cant wait for hockey next week..yippee! ermmm...actually im not dat happy in sch just now...duno y.. its just dat sum ppl reallie make me pissed at them..haha! sumtymes i just duno wat this ppl wants...fine! if u want it your way then go to hell k? i dun give a damn animore...coward! im so sorry...but its just making me so damn frustrated with ur damn attitude..this ppl shud deserve a lesson man.. well...i dun give a damn....no point waiting and praying ar...

k enuff said...well..teddy..i hope we can be able to talk soon...haha..cu in hockey lesson..gudbye..

OMG!

2006-09-20T06:13:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS MY HAPPY DAY!!!!

OMG! u wun be able to believe it ar...u noe rite i always talk about my teddy meddy...and guz what..my teddy meddy oso take hockey for P.E elective..i oso take hockey..haha! what a coincidence... i was forever looking at my teddy lah as usual..

and guz what? we took the same bus back to school... he sat directly in front of me.. me, kat, khalis and him sat together2 at the back of the bus..thanks to khalis ar...hu ask him to sit behind oso..haha..nemind..i dun mind actually.. guz wat? he smiled at me...OMG! hes so damn cute dat i totally forgot abt the fatigueness i was feeling after hockey.... seriously.. we talk to him..actually i didnt really talk cuz all that had happened really shut me up...haha! but seriously..i cant help but smiling to myself rite now..even kat thinks im crazy ar..wdh? aniway...thankz to kat and khalis dat my teddy smiled at me.. i hope this is just the first step...hopefully got sth more exciting dat might happen between me and teddy..

so...haha! u guys oredi now that my teddy meddy is a guy..haha! sooner or later u will eventually know hus my teddy huh... aniway..i seriously hope i can get to talk to teddy one day...till then...im so happy..gudnite guys and teddy meddy.. :-)

haiz....

2006-09-20T06:05:00.000-07:00

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TEDDY MEDDY in the making..

2006-09-18T01:50:00.000-07:00

hello peepz...okae.. im gonna talk more about my new "teddy".. well the old one..i put it aside lah...ermm..dowan to talk abt it oredi..

so, here cums my new teddy...well im gona call it my new teddy meddy.. well all i can say dat my cutie teddy is of course very cute to me..hahaha.. my teddy meddy is very sweet to me..the smile on its face is so hot dat i feel like just pinching my teddy meddy's face... just now i saw my teddy meddy bought food and i saw as my teddy meddy walked in front of me..hahaha.. well.. im not dat close to my teddy meddy.. coz i tink teddy meddy is a low profile teddy..well tat is so my type lah.. low-profile, humble, quiet and of cuz must have the SWEETEST AND CUTEST smile ever.. ermm...nemind teddy meddy..remain dat way as i like u as it is now.. aniway..i just hope i can be able to interact with teddy meddy soon in any circumstances will do...oh please.. i just hope that i dun freak out on the day teddy meddy will talk to me.. keke.. please gimme the chance to talk to my teddy meddy once..okaelah..maybe not talk.. i mean atleast smile to my teddy meddy... hehe

okae lah..enuff wit my teddy meddy...so byez! yuh ok!

Nice old laydee....

2006-09-16T06:11:00.000-07:00

well..since ive said that i will update my blog todae since i had a C.I.P project at Sree Narayana Mission.. it was a very saddening sight looking at the elderly people there.. the fact that some of them were being sent there by their own children..haiz... aniway.. i helped to clean up their bedrooms.. me, kat, ct, leea, nasri, junwei and geng bai did the cleaning up job at level 3..we had to clean up the windows and the beds.. so...aniway we had fun together.. after that..we go perform to the old folks them some songs together.. it was damn cute to c my classmates singing along..haha.. then we oso fed them for their dinner.. i fed this lady who has to eat porridge..it was very sad.. oso..i overheard a conversation between this volunteer and one of the old folks there.. volunteer: so, auntie, where are your children?
the old lady: well..God bless them..

after that the old lady just kept quiet..it was so sad to hear that frm her..haiz..i hope i will be able to take care of my parents the best way i could..
after the thing..we went to northpoint to had our dinner..yummy!

ok..thatz all for today..yuh ok..:-I

Chance..

2006-09-15T06:22:00.000-07:00

In life, chance is the word that every one desires..
Chance is the word that makes everyone happy..
But yet, not everyone gets to enjoy it..
It is easier to accept it but hard to get it..
For it only comes only once or never..
So once you come across it, grab it and don’t lose it..
Consider yourself to be lucky..
As many others have yet to get it and are patiently waiting..
But why, there are some who simply selfish?
Is it that hard for you to give someone a chance?
People out there waiting for it but you still couldnt give it.
I know it is hard to give but it is even harder to those waiting and wanting it..
Therefore, chance is hard to come by, but if you give it to someone it meant a lot to her.
And whenever you have it, don’t lose it..
Treasure it..
Cherish it..
For it comes only once...

- hie...above is just my thoughta about some stuffs that im feelling ryt now...aniway.. i had sch just now.. cant help looking at my teddy.. i duno wat my teddy is going thru rite now.. i will only hope the best for my teddy .. r u alrite teddy? take care k? i will just look at u frm far.. that itself makes me happy oredi.. :-)..haiz....take care k?

in school now!

2006-09-13T23:19:00.000-07:00

oh well..now im in sch and i just finished class!! yippee!! hey guys about my last nite post...just forget wat ive said k?? i just wanna be happy for now...i dun wanna tink about all the probs first k?? so...just now i had my elective P.E..well i played the hockey..hehehe..not bad ar lydia.. so..hockey is fun afterall.. i like hockey now compared to volleyball that i played the last term.. so, me and kat as usual..play hockey like one gundu..i mean two gundus..hahaha...
oso..in sch..me, siti, sufi, kat and sumtymes leea will play this game we created ourselves.. "The BELL game"..hehehe.. it goes like this.. wen the bell rings, we have to shout any phrase or anybody's name...like "AHHHH!!!".. so huever shouted first gets the credit..hahaha.. well its seriously fun.. try to imagine if ure in the middle of a seriously BORING class..and u play this game..u will wake up anione that is sleeping and creates excitement to the atmosphere ure in.. me and my frens shouted in the middle of lessons and the teachers will just get shocked from it and eventually laugh..esp duirng GP lesson where ms tan will nag2 naag2... we just disrupt her..hahaha..sorry teacher..but hu cres..itz seriously fun..

ok this saturday, i have CIP thingy at Sree Narayana Mission.. msut help them with their work..so i will keep u guys updated about the latest news! hehe...so byez everyone!

the real me

2006-09-13T07:24:00.000-07:00

ermmm...since i got nothing to do now i might as well update my blog.. well, im just freaking bored with school.. its so rushing dat i just cant be bothered with aniting..aniways, enuff of sch yar..

so..i miss my band practice..i mean my alumni band pract..i just miss playing my double bass.. i really look forward to band practises and wiil enjoy it alot..eventho the size of the band might not be appealing but its very fun to play music wif frens..well..i just miss them so much now.. i didnt gt to go for the band bbq..i bet it was fun..haiz..shud have go.. im just feeling listless nowadays..duno y..probably because of sch and problems at hm.. well, ppl just cant help thinking that im always happy in sch wen im not.. im just a very cheerful person hu wun go ard feeling moody.. i will just keep quiet.. well,, now im the real lydia u will noe..

i duno y but i just feel so sad...well...i just nid to cheer up myself..if only i can eat the "soma pills"..i will eat 10 of it...well hu cres if i gt addicted..as long as u cn get happiness..haiz..i cn only say "if only"..all the things that i want will not be achieved..the happiness, ppl understanding me...etc...well i cn get all that..watever k?? my main concern is my promos..prepare for hell yar..so..gdnyt teddy.. gd nyt everyone!

sch is such a chore

2006-09-11T08:24:00.000-07:00

Today was such an irritating and frustrating day...well even tho sch started...its just sooooo hectic ar... i cant help it ar.. im being piled up wif tons and tons of work to do for school.. project work really getting on my nerves! wen will the torture ends man? also. school work is so much lah....argh! i luv gooing to school but i really dun like the amount of work they ask us to do... well shit to all the people!!! i cant help it...but have to accept all tis.. i wan to get over and done wif.. my promos is in about two weeks time! damn! shit! i just hope i will be able to pull it thru.. i dowan to retain..well, i have to work harder esp for literature.. oh gosh! promos will be the scrariest event man..other than SYF and band comp.. this is worst than o-levels.. im just scared that i will freaking retain......hopefully not.. i do hope my frens get promoted as well... pray together2 k? esp that sumone...i hope we both can get promoted and see each other as jc2 next year..work hard k dear? oppsss!!! cnt help it...itz my blog...i shud write wat im feeling ryt? si take care everyone....nite! yuh ok!(hahaha no more tata from me!)

Rihanna - Unfaithful

2006-09-09T07:01:00.000-07:00

hiya ppl..well, its as usual a boring dae today.. planned to go out actually but all my frens tired after the camp.. i guz its a very fun camp.. haiz.. i miss it though.. aniways..i gt to study econs todae.. ermm.. so wat else shud i write??? yuh ok!

Story of my life Searching for the right...
But it keeps avoiding me..
Sorrow in my soul...
Cause it seems that wrong..
Really loves my company..

He's more than a man..
And this is more than love..
The reason that the sky is blue..
But clouds are rolling in...
Because I'm gone again..
And to him I just can't be true..

well heres part of a song...im just bored so i did find this lyric.. i lurve tis song..
i miss teddy!hehehe!

Argh!!!

2006-09-07T06:50:00.000-07:00

i hate it when i have to feel this way...well..must i always live in fear of having to ask u first? its irritating and frustrating..cmon..ive grown up.. wat more do u want?? i hve to sacrifice alot of stuffs juz to follow ur needs... WAT MORE DO YOU WANT!!!!! y cant u be like the rest..i envy the rest hu has evrything... sumtymes i just cnt help it but to say tis...well..i freaking hate it wen u treat me tis way? hope u will just realise it??? argh!

High School Musical rox!

2006-09-06T06:15:00.000-07:00

hiya! wat a great day today... well, i had skool in the morn.. watever stoopid mly talk which i dun even undastan a single word the lecturer talking lah.. aniways, i went out after my sch.. went to my fren's cousin's house at swang.. and guz wat? GUZ WAT? i ALREADY WATCH THE HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL.. omg! its such a nice story..no wonder my frens keep on pestering me to watch that damn thing and true enough its DAMN cute lah.. i luv zac efron seh.. he so damn cute.. well hes 19 aniway..hehehe! dream on lydia! haiz...it makes me wondering now whether such guy really exist in tis world, in spore.. haiz.. hes so nice la.. if only i cn meet sumone lyk him or even better.. till then, i will stick to my beloved TEDDY! hahaha! i miss u so much teddy.. haiz...i just hope ppl will soon realise their mistake...nt mistake actually..just dat i miss it so much and yet u cudnt even bothered abt it.. how cn u forget the times we spent even within a month? the sweet memories... all i wan is for u to treat me, maybe nt as special as before but probably as a gd fren... u dun even talk to me nw...its saddening and i duno if u can ever realise it.. haiz... c wat high school musical cn do for u..nw i become so emo lah...haiz... aniways, i really hope u realise it.....kkkkkk.....cheer up gal! kla....tata!(shut up jannah...i noe u must be laughing at my tata!)hahaha!

yippee!! hello everybody!

2006-09-05T00:18:00.001-07:00

hello ppl...ive created a new blog( as in a real blog)...so jannah, pls delete away my stoopid and dumb mly blog aite?hahaha! well...since im like so free i guz i shud write a blog abt myself too.. well..todae is such a boring a day for me..well its only 3pm.. im stuck at hm and planning to slp later..hehe.. nothing to do wat..so cant blame me.. no skool todae and its actually the sept hols oredi.. ermm..so well..im still lydia..the same old lydia.. ive nt changed abit only my bitchilization(hopefully i spelled it correctly, sorry gerls) mates said that i changed..well i guz thay noe me better.. well i met up wif them recently.. and true enuff most of them change too.. lynnie(sori i have to call u dat), nana, faz, azi, lia and mai...nt forgetting ct too...and den.. hehehe! had fun playing bowling wif them.. oh gosh! i din noe that my bowling skills improve tau...haha!

aniways im finishing off soon...so gdluck yar and keep a look out for LEEDEEYAR...